another new year...

一个新年又这样过了...接下来又回到个自繁忙的生活.唉... 希望能再次相逢! 大家加油哦! =)

the most wonderful valentine~

i believe it is not in material presents,
but rather,
seeing your loved one rush back to a waiting you after his meeting
cooking a loving meal to dine together in the warm comfort of home
the warm, happy feeling when two people are together
getting up earlier to prepare breakfast
a protective hand over your shoulder in the crowded train
having someone worry when the queue at the ladies is long
the small gestures that show that he cares or worries bout you
being able to choose new clothes together
sharing a meal together
walking home together
trying out new clothes together
the way you just look at each other and smile
or being at ease with each other and doing some normal activities
rushing home to deliver lunch for a hungry someone
or even just an indirect acknowledgement that you are someone special to him

valentine's day is not feb 14
if you love each other
i really believe now, that
everyday can be valentine's day

i had a chance to have 3 of such days
almost perfect, just with some slight disturbances in the middle
but i'm glad i sorted out my problems so that it did not spoil the rest of our time together

there is a saying:
快乐是属于那些，会把快乐放大，把问题缩小，的人。

不要想太多，真的会开心点。因为很多时候语气不好只是因为累。
人在身边时就看到很清楚。不在身边时，就要懂得相信他。
这就是基本的原则吧。

快乐是在自己的手中的。
如果你选择快乐
你就真的会快乐。 =）

三年了，我总该学会了吧！

每次发生， 也不是我的错。而是有别的因素。 别的很正常的理由。
所以我真的该别想太多，自造麻烦了。
相信他就可以了。=）

the cave

one fine day i saw a most adorable puppy in my whole entire life. it had soft brown eyes, a kind nature and was as charming as could be. just playing with the puppy melted my heart into puddles and puddles of blood. one day, the puppy suddenly fell sick. i was worried sick, but there was nothing much i could do. even the vet could not tell what was wrong with my dear puppy. i tried my best to shower dear puppy with lotz of TLC. and it seemed to touch puppy's heart.

SUDDENLY...

one day.. puppy ran away into the woods..
i followed and followed, trying to find puppy. sometimes i could see puppy from afar. sometimes i lost track of puppy. sometimes puppy ignored me and slept and slept. finally puppy disappeared into a dak and scary cave..

i was left alone and floundering outside, wondering what was wrong with puppy, worrying that puppy would fall even more ill, worrying that puppy did not want me around anymore..

i waited and waited for days on end. to no avail. worries were my constant companions. fears flooded my dreamz. tears seemed glued to my face. i couldn't seem to shake them loose. and the wait continued..

i couldn't take it any longer..

or i will die!!!

at least i thought so.

so one day after so many days, i knocked at the cave opening...

the sleeping puppy just opened one eye and glared at me. however, undauted, i ventured one step forward into the cave.

i forgot the most important rule!!! any girl who walks into the cave will die a most terrible death!!!

anyway, i wasn't dead yet. so i walked in and started talking to dear puppy. however, dear puppy wastn't at all polite and only grunted in the correct places. at last, I COULD'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!! i asked........

i asked what was bothering puppy. Oops! wrong question!
puppy immediately morphed into a most fearsome dragon and blow mouthful after mouthful of fire at me, the fire so strong that it completely blew me out of the cave and out of the woods. wow, it was so great the whole of the woods burnt down. so now it's just a lone fearsome cave surrounded by a blackened area.

oh ya. what became of me? i turned into a roasted turkey.

and now, with my poor scorched fingers, or what's left of them anyway, i type what i learnt to anyone who cares to learn..

never ever venture into the cave.

just let them rot there, for all i care.

if you read john gray's book you will understand.

when things go down...

they really go down...

and there's nothing i can do about it...

a matter of trust

recently i told myself that i will be optimistic in everything that happens for 7 days. I've always heard that it takes a week to create a habit. well. i tried. it was hard at first. i had to constantly remind myself of my decision. 7 days came and went. i wasn't really up all the time. sometimes i was still quite moony. but relatively less than usual. now, i think that being positive really makes me happier.

last time i always did what other people expected me to do.
now i do what i feel is right, do my best, and don't expect anything in return.

last time i always doubted him, even though he never did stray
now i just trust him. no matter what happens. and then i realised.. he is still there. and he is trying his best.

everybody just has their own different way of showing that they care. but what is love without trust? i didn't know that i hurt him everytime i doubted him. so trust, and accepting him as he is, even though it's hard sometimes, proved to be so much better for our relationship.

i believe happiness is your own responsibility.

it's all in the mind.
it's all about how you think.
it's all your own choice.

so... be happy! =)

smile!!

笑一笑，
没什么事情过不了。 =）

after much hard work...

penang~

还好啦。。 除了吃，还是吃。哈哈。。

映像最深刻的是有一天晚上，我刚到 song river 吃。吃饱了走着出去时，我看到一个男子边笑边吃。开始我觉得。。 哇，这个人不错。吃到这样开心。过后才看到原来他手上拿着相机，在录着自己吃satay， 还说：mmm,真得很好吃。。

有时我想，他到底是怎样的人？

是一个人吃一个人来槟城玩吗？好像有点可怜，有点凄凉。不过他却还能很开心。。

是录了过后给女朋友看吗？或许他们刚好那天晚上不能在一起，他把吃satay的过程录下来给他看？？真甜蜜哦。。

不过在我的想象中我还是比较喜欢想像说他是一个虽然孤单但很坚强的人。=）

study break

hmm.. study break and what am i doing?? knitting... haha..
i'm in a knitting frenzy now, rushing to finish a pair fo gloves for him. first, it was too big, now i'm afraid it'll be too small. still working on it. my physio is so dead. .

raya hols was great, got to meet up with my rarely-seen friends. we went to pd for a day trip, then went yamcha another day. i'll upload the pics when i have time. now, i have no time. haha.. too busy knitting. =)

sem 2 coming to an end...

this sem has been quite fun, come to think of it.
putting aside all the projects and assignments, for the rest of the time we were just busy thinking of whether wana go to midvalley or timesquare. haha..

this sem we went to midvalley god knows how many times, went for cell outing, discovered the passage connecting sg wang and timesquare, discovered food everywhere, including jalan kuchai lama and old klang road, tom yam in sri petaling, sg besi pasar malam & no. 1 claypot chicken rice (which i haven't had a chance to try yet) ...

i got obsessed with a type of pants, so now i have 3. haha.. this is wat i call obsession. actually i got obsessed with quite a number of things, but i can only remember the pants and the cute tortoise thing. i actually bought 1 for myself already, then i saw them selling blue and pink tortoises another day in pasar malam. due to my excessive undecidedness, i didn't buy. so i had to drive all the way back through all the jam to buy the two pathetic tortoises.

in midvalley one day, i actually saw my favourite contestant in malaysia's 'i want to be model' with her boyfriend i think. my goodness, her body was so unbelievably perfect and she was so pretty. but then again, she was only kicked out coz she was too short to be a model. ai...

i went to see imu cup events: only football and cheerleading. i wanted to see basketball too, but i didnt know where it was. they said it was far better than football though, aside from all the eye candy.

cheerleading was fantastic. pharmacy won! i always thought they were the best anyway. our batch was very supportive. we made confetti to throw down from the 1st floor at the end of their performance. the guys even painted their purple t-shirts to spell out the word 'PHARMACY' so creative of them. the banner was very nice too.

so... what else..?? well, i am currently broke beyond broke. if jpa will really increase our money i guess that will be a dream come true.

i'm so happy these few days. my relationship with my fren can be considered stable, peaceful and happy. got to see him in this whole sem more than the entire year before. haha..
really feel happy. i guess it is me. as long as i don't think too much and don't be unrealistically demanding, and if i trust him, really trust him, happiness isn't that far around the corner.
of course, the book really helped. "men are from mars and women are from venus- by john gray"

i still have 2 weeks of class before 3 weeks of study break. then i will have 1 day of exam. hey, that's finals wei. kinda idiotic rite?

so this week, monday, that is today, we are eating at tast walking then watching our own movie. we've been having our own movie marathon watching on my laptop in my room with the lights off. so far, we've watched what a girl wants, monster house and blue lagoon, which caused us much entertainment. especially my housemate. haha...

tues is pasar malam day. i hope to be able to but a tortoise hp case i saw last week. (note: obsession)

wed we are going to the gray and amour then eating at old klang road.

thurs go sunway, sat go times square and sg wang and isetan. fri unknown yet. sunday?? well, i guess i'll hav to study bm and eng, coz my tests start next week monday.

gotta go now. since i discovered the scanner in the library i have been waiting for this day. ~
i'll upload some pictures when i find time.

When the stars go blue...

Dancin' where the stars go blue
Dancin' where the evening fell
Dancin' in your wooden shoes
In a wedding gown

Dancin' out on 7th street
Dancin' through the underground
Dancin' little marionette
Are you happy now?

Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely
I'll follow you
When the stars go blue

Laughing with your pretty mouth
Laughing with your broken eyes
Laughing with your lover's tongue
In a lullaby

Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely
I'll follow you
When the stars go blue
The stars go blue, stars go blue

sarangheyo~

莎郎嘿唷 means i love you
代表着我 离不开你每分每秒每一个声音
只有你撒娇会让我微笑

莎郎嘿唷只对你说
i will love you
and forevermore 我答应 baby you will see
每一个我都属于你

Oh baby I will love you because
我都属于你

当我打给你，听到你用这首歌做我打给你的ringtone 的时候。。。
整个心‘lam’了..^.^

men are from mars.. women are from venus..

i bought the book some time ago, read it halfway, then forgot about it...
recently i picked it up again. it is really good y'know. half the time i feel like the book is talking about me. it's like, hey! that's me!
it's good somehow, unravels some of the mind-boogling facts about guys..
now i just have to believe it and react accordingly. hmmm... takes practice though..

help! i'm a photocopier for answers!!

you noe wat, i dun mind helping other people in their work or explaining stuf if i actually understand it and they don't . or comparing answers with them after they actually do it. However..... I CAN'T STAND PEOPLE WHO ARE TOO LAZY TO DO THEIR HOMEWORK THEMSELVES AND JUST WANT TO COPY!!! what am i? an answer generating machine? everybody has to do their homework themselves. why can't they just do it like all others?
"aiya, i dunno how to do la, can you save your answers for me??"
"have you finished your report ah? can lend me to copy ah?"
what the heck! you all have brains rite?
if you don't use them it could actually degenerate!!

友情的考验

最近因为男女私情。。 好像失去了一个朋友。他说他还需要时间。。可是面对我时却好像隔着什么的。。我们会不会永远都无法回到以往那种舒服的朋友关系呢？？或者真的没办法。。 朋友之间一旦多出一个‘情’，一旦说了出来，恐怕只会有一生的尴尬。
希望这个人能在拉曼找到属于他的幸福。。这样或许我们总于可以做会朋友。

i hate it when...

everything that matters to you is just --- YOURSELF!

One tree hill season 3

One tree hill is back!!!
haha.. i'm slowly going crazy due to unhealthy suspense.;p

if i never knew you

If I never knew you
If i never felt this love
I would have no inkling of
How precious life can be

And if I never held you
I would never have a clue
How at last I'd find in you
The missing part of me.

And I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Lost forever
If I never knew you

If I never knew you
I'd be safe but half as real
Never knowing I could feel
A love so strong and true

I'm so grateful to you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Lost forever
If I never knew you

if I never knew you
There's no moment I regret
If i never felt this love
Since the moment that we met
I would have no inkling of
If our time has gone too fast
How precious life can be...
I've lived at last...

And if I never knew you
If I never knew you
I'd have lived my whole life through
Empty as the sky
Never knowing why
Lost forever
If I never knew you

暧昧

只能陪你到这裡
毕竟有些事不可以
超过了友情
还不到爱情
远方就要下雨的风景

到底该不该哭泣
想太多是我还是你
我很不服气
也开始怀疑
眼前的人 是不是同一个 真实的你

曖昧让人受尽委屈
找不到相爱的证据
何时该前进
何时该放弃
连拥抱都没有勇气

曖昧让人变得贪心
直到等待失去意义
无奈我和你
写不出结局
放遗憾的美丽 停在这裡

lydia~

迷离的眼眶
为何流浪
心碎的海洋
受了伤
连微笑都彷徨
gypsin女郎
为谁而唱

你会看见雾
看见云
看见太阳
纪念和大地重复着悲伤

他走了带不走你的天堂
风干后会留下彩虹泪光
他走了你可以把梦留下
总会有个地方等待爱飞翔

lydia 幸福不在远方
开一扇窗
许下愿望

你会感受爱
感受恨
感受原谅
生命总不会只充满悲伤

wedding bells

I went for sally’s wedding on sat morning. It was quite a rush, as we had to leave at 9am for the 11am wedding. Guess this is one of the downside of always being on time. Anyway, I went there wondering how grand it was going to be. While waiting outside for the rest to arrive, we engaged in the only activity available—people watching. Conclusion? City harvest is full of ‘lenglui’s. aih.. is there hope for me to become like them? How I wish. Haha!;p
First we saw the husband-to-be. Damn handsome man. Then sally arrived, looking blur, excited, happy… the flower girls were sooooo cute!! So was a little boy of about 1-2 years old, looking adorable and dashing in a mini tuxedo. I thought he was going to be the ring bearer, and seriously, I was a bit worried for the couple as he kept crying and hanging on to his poor mothers’ legs like it was his life-line. By the way, after the wedding, we saw him in a pram!! He looked so cute, like ‘xiu yeh’ like that. Ha..
During the wedding, they showed a short video clip of the couple. It was quite touching, as we could really see how much in love both of them were. The whole wedding sweet, heart-warming, sentimental, full of romance... it made me think of what I would really want for my wedding. When or if it happens anyway. Heheh.. I don’t really care about the decorations, as long as it’s simple and sweet. But I want the special feeling to be there. The feeling of both being ecstatic, happy till nervous, sweet, touching, romantic… the feeling of “finally… we can finally be together forever…”

chicky thursday

One sunny evening, mother hen brought his chicks to midvalley for a treat. The chicks were very excited because it was their first outing together. So, on the way there, they chirped about endless topics, and then trooped after mother hen to the appointed place where a special bedtime story was being told. As there was some time to kill, four of the chicks found themselves some food while mother hen found himself a drink. Mother hen sure waddled very fast though. Anyway they were just in time to catch the magical story about narfs and everybody having an appointed role and purpose in life. It was a very fun outing not so much because of the movie but more the excellent company. At the end of the night, mother hen had to leave while the chicks found their way back themselves. The entire journey was most amusing mainly due to a particular talkative and funny chick. Under orders from mother hen, with dire consequences should they fail to comply, the male chicks showed off their gentlemanly attitude by walking the female chicks back to vista C. ~the end~

Cast:
Mother hen: zia hau
Chicks: me, Fiona, Kelvin, BB, KK, miao miao, Alfred, David
Talkative chick: Alfred

Quotes:
It is not the movie, it’s “watching together”… -zia hau

stuff tv teaches

saw on tv yesterday, some actor lecturing on love to his son.
hmm.. what did he say??
he said, it doesn't mean that you gotta always be with the person you love. it's enough that you keep them in your heart.

~爱一个人不一定要在他们身旁，把他们收在心里就好。。。 ~

其实爱又是什么？是拥有吗？我们又怎么懂那真正是爱呢？
我们所认识的爱，就是从电视机，故事书，看到的爱。那些又是爱吗？难道爱是对那些衡量的？
我认为不是。。

love is a fickle thing
it comes and goes as it pleases
leaving confusion along its path
it offers no lifelong guarantee
yet requires you to give your fragile heart
sometimes it brings a smile
yet at other times it brings more heartache
but happiness is a choice
just like sadness is our choice
i don't know what my life holds
but they say God gives us only this much obstacles
knowing that we have the strength to overcome it
what can't kill you can only make you stronger

i always see this phrase:
Don't ever leave the one you love for the one you like
because the one you like will leave you for the one he loves
but then, well, what if you are just the one he likes
one day he will leave you for the one he loves
so what will you do then?
will life lose all its meaning and glow?
hmm, well, for me, it most probably will.

i also often see this phrase:
it is better to have loved and lost
than to have never loved at all

life is one tricky thing
there's no knowing what may come next
but i suppose if this is my life
the very least i can do
is to face it with a smile~

爱情的秘诀

1。 信任
总觉得很难做到。。
动不动就怀疑他，责问他，尤其是当他身边有别的女子，
还是别的女子对他太好，跟他太亲，跑到太近。。唉。。。
其实我觉得他并不会去‘靠’别的女子，只是怕他会对她们太好，使她们心动。。
我知道我因该给他我100%的信任，可是却做不到。
我太容易吃醋。太怕受到伤害。。
信任越大，往往受到的伤害越大。
可是或许不信任
到头来
伤害最大。

2。 接纳
每一个人，有优点，又有缺点。
为什么人往往要去改变一个人的缺点，
成为他们所认为该有的优点?
改变是不可能会发生的。
是贪心吧，还是笨。
如果能就这样接受。。那该多好。。

突然觉得这一切都很烦。
我在这以前到底是个怎样的人？
我已忘记了。。

到底我不知不觉的改变，是为好还是为不好？
我也不知道
只是突然觉得遗失了自我
想花一点时间找回自己，
却害怕找到的自己是连我自己也不喜欢的，
或则是孤独的

不过我所知道的
就是要重新找回
轻松的笑容

爱。。。

原来爱。。。 需要很勇敢。。
因为爱一个人不只是曾任他的优点，还有的是要接受他的缺点。
毕竟没有人是完美的。

this is your life ~ switchfoot

yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
yesterday is a promise that you've broken
don't close your eyes,
don't close your eyes
this is your life
and today is all you've got now
yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose

yesterday is a kid in the corner
yesterday is dead and over
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
don't close your eyes
this is your life are you who you want to be
this is your life are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be
when the world was younger and you had everything to lose
and you had everything to lose

dizzy spells

i was having a mundane BM class when all of a sudden i started feeling dizzy. a kind of disorientated feeling where i couldn't walk a straight line and every sudden movement rendered me seeing stars in front of me. hmm.. how could this happen?? i only had this once before. that was because i got caught under the rain and forgot to wash my hair. but this time the sky shone clear and i really don't know what to do. i only know that dizziness is one of the worst ailments i have ever encountered. somebody help me!!!

无题

我发现
眼睛睁大，往上看
眼泪就不会那么容易掉下来
所以我就睁大眼睛往上看。。。

end of holidays ...

i really don't want the holidays to end...
the beginning of the holidays was ok, filled with lots of activities...
the middle part was getting better.
we did so many things in these few weeks.. we went to sing karaoke for 10 hours straight non-stop, went to serdang without housekeys, ate an extremely expensive dinner costing RM21.10 at 10pm at night, we went to boon koon's hse, lin hui's hse, city park, saw black night(worst ever show i ever seen), saw tokyo drift, went for 2002 graduates gathering, went to birthday party in serdang, lepak in terminal 1...
but it's all ending now..
feel kinda sad, restless, lonesome...
it's going to be so hard to meet up again with everyone present. even this coming combined birthday party is so hard to organise.
ai... end of holidays...