矛盾

那天驾车去sunway遇到个路霸，虽然表现冷静，还跟他道歉，其实心中都几怕下。奇怪的事，身边的朋友还很佩服我那么镇定。哈。
那天过后我才发现，原来我已训练到自己能把自己心中的感觉隐藏到那么好。
心中伤痛时却表现出微笑
心中似乎被刀割成碎片时还能装出一幅若无其事，坚强的样子。
我真得越来越假le...
还是这是生存下去的唯一条路。。。？

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what's the point of going on
when you can't see into my heart?
But there's alwayz this fear of having you gone
accepting the loneliness is just too hard

who can see me when i'm invisible?
or do i have to morph into a butterfly?
but such things are so shallow and feeble
with time they'll just fade and die...

it hurts me when you smile but don't mean it
feel nothing for me but just fake it
when everything you do
don't mean a thing to you

i have reached a stage beyond tears
a stage where i have to face all my fears
if it means a life without you
at least i'll try to live it to the full

hairy dick cheer

before i forget it, i better write it down first.. haha!
coz i oredy forgot my samba yeah cheer! OMG!! almost kena belasah from pc.heheh..

we are.. hairy dick (x2)
soft like jelly
hard like brick
you can touch
you can lick

we make you
ah ah ah ah x2

say...
hairy dick!!

kinda obscene, but well, that's orientation.^^

tokyo drift cheer:

wonder if you know
bout the group rite here you know
when you see us horny buggers then you know you have to go

hairy dicky....
dick! dick! dick! dick! x2

samba yeah cheer:

who's gonna rock up all night long
we are
yeah
we are
yeah
who's gonna stand and beat the rest
samba
what??
samba
who??
samba yeah!!!

张栋梁-痛彻心扉

回忆充满整个房子
我们的住处
围困我笑也不会茶也不思
一个人恍恍又惚惚
相爱的国度里没有人居住
回忆混乱我的脚步
阻碍了出路
证明了你的自私你的贪图
残忍的看着我无助
平淡的回应我虚假的无辜
痛彻心扉记忆的伤一寸一寸像你的冷酷
否定我这些日子以来的付出
告诉我不再需要有我来保护
不能睡的痛楚不知名的愤怒
不能上诉只能安静的痛哭

nick lachey~

An empty room can be so deafening,
The silence makes you wanna scream,
It drives you crazy.

I chased away the shadows of your name,
And burned the picture in a frame,
But it couldn't save me.

And how could we quit something we never even tried,
Well you still can't tell me why.
We built it up, To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.

I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what your looking for.

But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore. ...
I can't hate you anymore.

Your not the person who you used to be,
The one I want who wanted me,
And that's a shame but,

There's only so many tears that you can cry.
Before it drains the light right from your eyes,
And I can't go on that way.

And so I'm letting go of everything we were,
It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

We built it up, To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.

You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what your looking for.

But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.

Sometimes you hold so tight,
It slips right through your hands.
Will I ever understand?

We built it up, To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away, You stole my life,
Just to find what your looking for.

But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.

假装 - jolin

呼吸着一种孤独的味道
心跳在你沉默以后慢慢的被淡忘掉
我笑了笑反正你看不到
我要的幸福
遗落在你怀抱
当爱失了焦
那些最初的美好
早被你搁在一角
街上拥挤人潮
走着看着都是摧眠符号
记忆停不了
穿过读你的心跳
穿过想你的味道
我只想不被打扰
假装多好我只要
只想要再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱
一直会让我依靠
继续等待
还心甘情愿的不想逃
当爱失了焦
那些最初的美好
早被你搁在一角
街上拥挤人潮
走着看着都是摧眠符号
记忆停不了
穿过读你的心跳
穿过想你的味道
我只想不被打扰
假装多好我只要
只想要再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱
一直会让我依靠
继续等待
心甘情愿不想逃
假装多好依然是
依然是暧昧的tone调
一个人无理取闹
两人世界的煎熬
我被自己困在自己设下的圈套
像是驼鸟
相信时间是唯一解药
视而不见
傻到了无可救药
其实早明了
你的爱已随风飘
想要找
再也找不到
假装多好我只要
只想要再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱
还心甘情愿的不想逃
假装多好依然是
依然是暧昧的tone调
一个人无理取闹
两人世界的煎熬
我被自己困在自己设下的圈套
假装自己
已解开冰冷的手铐

orientation of P107

i had a really busy week, absolutely no time to study. but, i don't regret signning up to be oo for hairy dick. really! what i got in return for my time was human relationship, fun, friendship.. i feel so protective for them, just don't want them to get hurt in any way..
this fragile bond that we have formed.. how long will it last? i suppose it's too naive of me to think that it will last forever, but well, one can only hope. samba yeah didn't really manage to stay together after orientation. we sort of drifted apart. hairy dick seems more 'together'. so well, maybe after all..
lotz of things happened at the end tho.. the 'K' problem and the 'C' problem. thank goodness one was solved, but well, the 'K' problem is not i guess. the whole group of us with us girls in our heels actually climbed up all the way to the globe to console K when we got 2nd. together with the dick, the banner, two hampers and 1 trophy. it was fun there tho. took lotz of crazy pictures. after that, our clubbing plan changed to all-nite-long red box instead at sunway there. damn tired man.
after 2 days i thought he finally came out of it, but last night my poor junior kena blasted by him for no apparent reason. what i really can't stand is him taking it out on the juniors. coz they really dunno anything de ma.. ai..
hope everything gets sorted out before it gets too late with too much damage done..

转变~

一起送出去的礼物还未打开
之间却有了微妙的改变
是好是坏？
是我疯了吗？
还是是唯一的选择？
或许是逃不掉的命运。。。
我成长了吗？
坚强的我。。快出现啊。。