freakin S.I.E.N.Z

tonight supposed to find more info on my research topic.. even the thought drives me to sleep.

how am i going to do a study on UGIB and PGU comparing 2 drugs when in the whole 3 wards got only 1 case of UGIB and PGU each??? sighzzz.... i guess this is why ppl use a whole year to do the project. and i'm so bad to hope for more patients with these cases to appear.. since i've seen myself the pain it causes... sigh.. i wonder which drug my granma was on last time.

cannot find study on our topic is good i guess, means we'll be the pioneers! but is also so daunting. coz means we'll be the ones writing those gengcau papers claiming this that and the other.. like all those kononnya gengcau ppl i always imagined who wrote journals and stuff. i really can meh? design protocols etc... it seems so... duno how to say.. maybe i should kick off the mentality that i'm still a student with the free pass to say i dunno. now.. i must grow up and act like an adult and grope my way with as little head-bonks as possible.

another looming monster is the forensic exam. oh gosh.... i feel weak at the knees already. imagine reading MEP for the first time.. times the thickness by 3 times. then times by 2 books..

time limit? 25 days.

lets say 1 day after work got 7 hours.
1 hour = some overtime, some jam, get my ass home...
1 hour = eat dinner.. bathe..
1 hour = chill
left 4 hours.
let's say i don't procrastinate or fb or surf the net like what i'm doing now...
4 hours split by research project and forensic = 2 hours for forensic.

25 days x 2 hours = 50 hours = around 2 days without sleep eat shit or anything else. hmm.. maybe a should start panicking. since i work better under stress anyways. haha..

so as usual.. even though i have so much stuff to do.. i'm actually still procrastinating up till now.. and i stumbled upon this song.. really awesome! music brought to life!



pity there's no video here though. the video is on in fb though, for any who wanna see their excitement while playing.;p

i think i'd better start on my search for journals.. high time.. since it's 1 hour to bedtime. aiks...