frp day 1

i got back into htjs. not to say very elated, not to say very sad. my parents are the happiest though. i suppose i should feel very blessed, actually. since there are places far more ulu where there's no internet, no water, and petrol costs will end up high as well as car maintenance for driving through the bumpy stone roads.

so anyway, here i am now starting as full-time warfarin mtac pharmacist and to take over the orthopedic wards 4B and 2B. in actual fact.. i'm scared.. i don't feel like i know a heck of a lot. i don't feel confident in myself. sigh.. most importantly, i must make sure i do not harm any patient in any way, or i will never forgive myself.

whatever it is, here's to the future.

my new motto for this year:
don't demand respect. earn it.

lOst

with all that's been happening around me recently,
i suddenly feel a bit lost..
i seem to have lost my bearings..
tottering on the brink of uncertainty

of who I am

of what I am

of where to go

of my future, my dreams

change.. partings.. changes in roles..

I feel loss

I am lost.

I am all alone.

points of interest in these two days...

1. bukit tinggi is freakin hot. is this global warming?

2. after like 2 years away from kl, i accidentally took the lrt instead of monorail.. so end up need to walk a long long way to low yat. in the rain somemore.. along the way, met this ang moh who asked me, pointing to my umbrella.. "where can i buy the parachute?"

wow.. now that i think bout it, there is some resemblance between those two..

3. some people actually prefer night call to A&E. i was supposed to work night call tonight and A&E on sunday. now i get to work A&E 8-5pm for both sat and sun instead. at least my internal 'clock' won't be jumbled up.=] working weekend sucks though.. if not i can go meet tortugana and maybe evileyn this weekend.. :(

4. was wearing my P106 t-shirt and shorts today and passed by some saleman. he had to ask.. are you over 18? ><

5. my camera oh my camera.. why are my pictures corrupted sometimes?? nikon says camera no problem.. memory card might or might not be the problem.. most probably computer problem.. huh?

6. i'm super freakin broke now.. :..( need to start saving some money...