最熟悉的陌生人

分手后不可做好友， 因此彼此伤害过。。。
不可做敌人， 因此彼此深爱过
所以我们变成了最熟悉的陌生人。。。

saw this on facebook
why everyone so emo??

sad stuff from facebook...

1、有些事，我们明知道是错的，也要去坚持，因为不甘心； 有些人，我们明知道是爱的，也要去放弃，因为没结局；有时 候，我们明知道没路了，却还在前行，因为习惯了。

2、以为蒙上了眼睛，就可以看不见这个世界；以为捂住了耳 朵，就可以听不到所有的烦恼；以为脚步停了下来，心就可以不 再远行；以为我需要的爱情，只是一个拥抱。

3、那些已经犯过的错误，有一些是因为来不及，有一些是因 为刻意躲避，更多的时候是茫然地站到了一边。我们就这样 错了一次又一次，却从不晓得从中汲取教训，做一些反省。

4、你不知道我在想你，是因为你不爱我，我明明知道你不想 我，却还爱你，是因为我太傻。也许有时候，逃避不是因为害怕 去面对什么，而是在等待什么。

5、天空没有翅膀的痕迹，但鸟儿已经飞过；心里没有被刀子 割过，但疼痛却那么清晰。这些胸口里最柔软的地方，被爱 人伤害过的伤口，远比那些肢体所受的伤害来得犀利，而且只有 时间，才能够治愈。

6、很多人，因为寂寞而错爱了一人，但更多的人，因为错爱 一人，而寂寞一生。我们可以彼此相爱，却注定了无法相守。 不是我不够爱你，只是我不敢肯定，这爱，是不是最正确的。

7、如果背叛是一种勇气，那么接受背叛则需要一种更大的勇 气。前者只需要有足够的勇敢就可以，又或许只是一时冲动， 而后者考验的却是宽容的程度，绝非冲动那么简单，需要的唯有 时间
8、生命无法用来证明爱情，就像我们无法证明自己可以不再 相信爱情。在这个城市里，诚如劳力士是物质的奢侈品，爱 情则是精神上的奢侈品。可是生命脆弱无比，根本没办法承受那 么多的奢侈

9、人最大的困难是认识自己，最容易的也是认识自己。很多 时候，我们认不清自己，只因为我们把自己放在了一个错误 的位置，给了自己一个错觉。所以，不怕前路坎坷，只怕从一开 始就走错了方向。

10、生活在一个城市里，或者爱一个人，又或者做某件事， 时间久了，就会觉得厌倦，就会有一种想要逃离的冲动。也 许不是厌倦了这个城市、爱的人、坚持的事，只是给不了自己坚 持下去的勇气。

11、多少次又多少次，回忆把生活划成一个圈，而我们在原 地转了无数次，无法解脱。总是希望回到最初相识的地点，如果 能够再一次选择的话，以为可以爱得更单纯。

12、如果你明明知道这个故事的结局，你或者选择说出来， 或者装作不知道，万不要欲言又止。有时候留给别人的伤害，选 择沉默比选择坦白要痛多了

让人心疼的12句话 哪句说到你的痛了....

stupid gal..

why do i do this to myself again and again?
have i not learnt?
i will not wait any longer
waiting while eating two cups of maggie
waiting while watching gossip girl
waiting...
sometimes i really think i am too naive

a moment

where time seems to stand still
where black and white becomes gray
where i remember
the reason i fell in love with you...

something out of the blue

yet has my heart doing acrobatics.^^

first day in enforcement

woohoo.. enforcement rocks man~

1. prepared raiding kits, there were taklimats, gotta fill up the form.. neh.. all the boring stuff.

2. RAIDING! on the first day mind you. yippee! it was quite interesting. five teams in the whole NS, then whole malaysia raid serentak for the slimming drug containing sibutramine? (i keep forgetting how to spell it.. then keep bugging mr. hon bout the spelling. sorrieee~) the most interesting was that the tauke of my shop was sooooooooo fierce. at first she was quite nice, a bit cautious. then she refused to take out her stock! even after the DEO card was shown. then at the mention of police she freaked! throwing the card on the table, scolding scolding. and man is she ganas. i was like shockednervousscared all rolled in one. (and mr. hon had just said that this was just a normal raid with normally no problems at all...0.0'') anyway, in the end she called her supplier to foot the bill, then handed everything to us. her supplier friend must be pretty busy right now.

rm200/box. NS got more than 100 i think. let's say is 100. malaysia count as 12 states to account for those smaller ones. 240000 in one shot. must pay back the salons/shops etc. then denda somemore? phew.

3. jetty visit!~ lalala~ got the chance to go to PD jetty for a short stint. had quite an interesting talk along the way too. i finally understand what the sinsei said bout my blood being 'weak' causing my rash. thanks!

4. I just realised that i thought hamsap kamarul was tommy!!!!!!!! oh noes!!!!!!!!!!! since i thought he was not the hamsap fella, when i saw him around i actually smiled. *pengsan* later he think i hiaw. besides, he is bald, fat and short, but soooooo totally does not look malay. i can't spot the signature hamsap look either. Either he has mastered the art of masking his hamsapness or my boops are just not big enough. Lolz.. anyways, my presentation topic is under him. diessss.......

5. cme here has foood~ ;p

hello, stranger

sometimes all it takes is a simple sentence to change everything you once knew into nothingness.

分手快乐

我无法帮你预言
委曲求全有没有用
可是我多么不舍
朋友爱的那么苦痛
爱可以不问对错
至少有喜悦感动
如果他总为别人撑伞
你何苦非为他等在雨中
泡咖啡让你暖手
想挡挡你心口里的风
你却想上街走走
吹吹冷风会清醒的多
你说你不怕分手
只有一点遗憾难过
情人节就要来了
剩自己一个
其实爱对了人
情人节每天都过
分手快乐
祝你快乐
你可以找到更好的
不想过冬
厌倦沉重
就飞去热带的岛屿游泳
分手快乐
请你快乐
挥别错的才能和对的相逢
离开旧爱
像坐慢车
看透彻了心就会是晴朗的
没人能把谁的幸福没收
你发誓你会活的有笑容
你自信时候真的美多了

floundering

at that instant, i'm always very calm..saying all the right words.. i rise to the occasion i suppose. right now, i feel like shit. 보고싶어... so much so much..

closure

i will be brave

i will be strong

i will forge on

after all

it's a brave new world

now i just need to believe that...

girly escapade

i actually spent my after-work hours today buying nail polish.. nail polish! what has become of me?

but i can't stop staring at the delicate flowers on my nails now. haha.. i think i'm addicted.;p

randomness for laughs

saw this on xian yi's facebook link. some seem to be picked from my thoughts themselves. Lolzz..

Random thoughts from people in the twenties…

3. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you’re wrong.

5. Have you ever been walking down the street and realized that you’re going in the complete opposite direction of where you are supposed to be going? But instead of just turning a 180 and walking back in the direction from which you came, you have to first do something like check your watch or phone or make a grand arm gesture and mutter to yourself to ensure that no one in the surrounding area thinks you’re crazy by randomly switching directions on the sidewalk.

7. I totally take back all those times I didn’t want to nap when I was younger.

8. Is it just me, or are 80% of the people in the “people you may know” feature on Facebook people that I do know, but I deliberately choose not to be friends with?

9. Do you remember when you were a kid, playing Nintendo and it wouldn’t work? You take the cartridge out, blow in it and that would magically fix the problem. Every kid in America did that, but how did we all know how to fix the problem? There was no internet or message boards or FAQ’s. We just figured it out. Today’s kids are soft.

10. There is a great need for sarcasm font.

11. Sometimes, I’ll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the f was going on when I first saw it.

12. I think everyone has a movie that they love so much, it actually becomes stressful to watch it with other people. I’ll end up wasting 90 minutes shiftily glancing around to confirm that everyone’s laughing at the right parts, then making sure I laugh just a little bit harder (and a millisecond earlier) to prove that I’m still the only one who really, really gets it.

14. I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.

15. I think part of a best friend’s job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die.

16. The only time I look forward to a red light is when I’m trying to finish a text.

18. Was learning cursive really necessary?

19. Lol has gone from meaning, “laugh out loud” to “I have nothing else to say”.

20. I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.

22. My brother’s Municipal League baseball team is named the Stepdads. Seeing as none of the guys on the team are actual stepdads, I inquired about the name. He explained, “Cuz we beat you, and you hate us.” Classy, bro.

23. Whenever someone says “I’m not book smart, but I’m street smart”, all I hear is “I’m not real smart, but I’m imaginary smart”.

24. How many times is it appropriate to say “What?” before you just nod and smile because you still didn’t hear what they said?

25. I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars teams up to prevent a dick from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers!

26. Every time I have to spell a word over the phone using ‘as in’ examples, I will undoubtedly draw a blank and sound like a complete idiot. Today I had to spell my boss’s last name to an attorney and said “Yes that’s G as in…(10 second lapse)..ummm…Goonies”

27. What would happen if I hired two private investigators to follow each other?

30. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.

32. Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty, and you can wear them forever.

34. I can’t remember the last time I wasn’t at least kind of tired.

35. Bad decisions make good stories

36. Whenever I’m Facebook stalking someone and I find out that their profile is public I feel like a kid on Christmas morning who just got the Red Ryder BB gun that I always wanted. 546 pictures? Don’t mind if I do!

37. Is it just me or do high school girls get sluttier & sluttier every year?

39. Why is it that during an ice-breaker, when the whole room has to go around and say their name and where they are from, I get so incredibly nervous? Like I know my name, I know where I’m from, this shouldn’t be a problem….

40. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you’ve made up your mind that you just aren’t doing anything productive for the rest of the day.

41. Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after DVDs? I don’t want to have to restart my collection.

42. There’s no worse feeling than that millisecond you’re sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.

43. I’m always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.

44. “Do not machine wash or tumble dry” means I will never wash this ever.

45. I hate being the one with the remote in a room full of people watching TV.. There’s so much pressure. ‘I love this show, but will they judge me if I keep it on? I bet everyone is wishing we weren’t watching this. It’s only a matter of time before they all get up and leave the room. Will we still be friends after this?’

46. I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello? Dammit!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voicemail. What’d you do after I didn’t answer? Drop the phone and run away?

47. I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.

48. When I meet a new girl, I’m terrified of mentioning something she hasn’t already told me but that I have learned from some light internet stalking.

49. I like all of the music in my iTunes, except when it’s on shuffle, then I like about one in every fifteen songs in my iTunes.

50. Why is a school zone 20 mph? That seems like the optimal cruising speed for pedophiles…

51. As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers, but no matter what the mode of transportation, I always hate cyclists.

52. Sometimes I’ll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.

53. It should probably be called Unplanned Parenthood.

54. I keep some people’s phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.

55. Even if I knew your social security number, I wouldn’t know what do to with it.

56. Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket, hitting the G-spot, and Pinning the Tail on the Donkey – but I’d bet my ass everyone can find and push the Snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time every time…

57. My 4-year old son asked me in the car the other day “Dad what would happen if you ran over a ninja?” How the hell do I respond to that?

58. It really pisses me off when I want to read a story on CNN.com and the link takes me to a video instead of text.

59. I wonder if cops ever get pissed off at the fact that everyone they drive behind obeys the speed limit.

60. I think the freezer deserves a light as well.

62. The other night I ordered takeout, and when I looked in the bag, saw they had included four sets of plastic silverware. In other words, someone at the restaurant packed my order, took a second to think about it, and then estimated that there must be at least four people eating to require such a large amount of food. Too bad I was eating by myself. There’s nothing like being made to feel like a fat bastard before dinner

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其实每个女生都是一个傻丫头~

一。和她发短信时，回复一定要快，让她觉得你放下手上的

事情立刻回复她，字数一定要比她的多，这样她会觉得你很在乎她。 ­

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二。每天睡觉之前一定要给她一条道“晚安”的短信，不管你有多晚，因为她可能一直在等你，只是她嘴上说不管。即便是她已经昏昏睡去，第二天一醒来也会立刻去查收信息。 ­

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三。看到她的未接电话要立刻打过去，任何时候不要让她找不到你，因为这样她会一直很不安心。 ­

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四。你问她想不想你时，如果她说不想，你不要生气，因为她的不想就是想。 ­


五。千万要记得女生都是害羞的，不要什么都让她主动。也不要在她表现心疼、吃醋、关心你的时候不停地问，只要偷偷地笑心里甜就够了，也许她不想让你知道她无时无刻不在想对你好。 ­

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六。经常去她的空间逛逛，即使什么也不留下，但是她看到你来过的痕迹也会很开心，也许有些心情就是为你而写。顺便看看她的心情日志什么的，还有她好友的留言，多知道点她的小秘密挺好，准备惊喜也容易点。 ­

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七。牵了手就不要轻易说分手，吵架的时候也不要说。如果她赌气跑开，只要一个用力的拥抱就能让她安静，就能让她感觉到你的爱。希望你能懂她离开时想要被挽留，如果说出口那只是乞求来的温柔。 ­

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八。开始一段新的恋情的前提是放下前面的所有恋情，你可以把她们给你的信物和美好记忆保留着，但是请把这些用一个匣子藏在她永远不会发现的地方，因为那些她不知道的事对于她是致命的伤害。记住女生都是敏感的动物。 ­

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九。如果一时冲动分了手，请给彼此冷却的时间，想清楚她就是你想要的人就勇敢地告诉她，不管用什么手段，死皮赖脸也好让她回到你身边就好。如果真的爱她就不要放开她，不要让她伤心，不要让她流泪，你明明知道她有多傻，她会傻傻等你的，你知道女生的青春有多么宝贵么！如果你还心疼她绝不要在分手不到一个月就移情别恋，这样等于在她伤口上撒盐。请你交换角色想一想，如果你女朋友和你分手第二天就在别的男人怀里开心地笑，你的心会有多痛？­

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如果你有一个傻丫头，请你好好珍惜她好好爱她好吗？也许你不知道你的一句关心，你的一个微笑，你的一个吻，一个拥抱，一个摸头发的动作都是她的幸福，其实她要的只是这么简单。她不奢求太多的惊喜，太多的浪漫，有你就是她所有的幸福。不要轻易放开她，因为她是傻丫头，她会在别人面前装的很强，对每个人微笑，然后半夜一个人躲在楼梯拐角处偷偷哭啼，她会不停地听着和你有关的歌，默默关注着你，默默的生病，默默的流泪，她会开始变的沉默，变得开始唱悲伤的歌，弹悲伤的曲子。­

如果你真的有一个傻丫头请记得你说的话好吗？请你让她幸福，给她幸福，要自信的对她说：“我会让你变成全世界最幸福的人，我要让所有的人都羡慕你有一个好老公。”­

saw this on facebook.. so true.. gals are idiots when it comes to love. guys just need to understand that.

cooling down period

boy was i mad.. but after taking a bath.. i finally decided to do the call anyway. this time i can say 'i sacrifice for you' to his face.

but i guess it really pays to 吃点亏..

coz when i called, he said he found someone.

breath of relief.

maybe he's not as useless as i thought.

my mood improved vastly. i even wished him all the best tomorrow and to break a leg.

but then again, even though "break a leg" is no different than "good luck", it is a bit not apt for a ball game.

so well... let's all hope for the best tomorrow.

p/s: i shoot to 100 degrees fast.. blow off steam for a while.. then it all evaporates leaving the nice me once again. it's always been this way. and i've just been reminded of myself once again. but mind you.. when i'm pissed.. i'm PISSED..

oh and by the way, H1N1 injected arm hurts after a day. no kidding.

what really PISSES me off!

if i change on-call with X and you owe X one and have to ganti her, FOR GOODNESS SAKE YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR THAT CALL! that's basic knowledge.

let's see... if X exchanged with me and i'm supposed to do it next week or sth, if i need to do presentations on that same day it's my own bad luck and i'll have to deal with it, and not say...."i sacrifice for youuuuu~~~" everytime i see X and make her feel bad.

it's not like i purposely change with X coz i can foresee that everyone will have to do presentations on that day right? moreover, it would be X's problem if you didn't have to ask her to ganti you much earlier.

and if you are supposed to do that call and you suddenly have some stupid ball chasing match football tournament YOU are the one supposed to deal with it right?? you don't come telling me at 4.45pm on friday "ohhhhh can you ganti me tomorrow?? pity me larrrr...."

GAH!!!!

if it's such an important match did you just find out about it 15 minutes before work ended on the day just before? if it's such a last minute thing it must not be very important. or if it is such an important thing you would have known much earlier. and you didn't bother to find a substitute earlier? was it just so that you can shock me at the very last minute and pressure me to doing the call??

well, too bad, i already have plans since a week ago.

and too bad for me also, if no one turns up, i'll still be the one fried.

really DAMN IT!!!!!!!!

DOUBLE TRIPLE INFINITY SHIT MAN!!

u asshole.. slimball.. slug.. bugger.. argh!!!!!!!!!

really, i would have thought you were more responsible than that.

H1N1 vaccination

after thinking bout it long and hard, i finally decided to let myself be one of the guinea pigs and take the H1N1 vaccine. well, we were supposed to take it anyway, and to write down our names if we refused so that in case we kena H1N1 we had to answer for ourselves. since it was die (from the vaccine?) or die (from H1N1?), i just took it la end of story.

a bit scared. wasn't painful. hand a bit numb after that. just like after the flu vaccine last time.

came home. dad was very supportive. mom was very NOT supportive. just like the population at hospital right now: some so happy that the vaccine is out. "we need the protection! we're at risk!" some won't take no matter what. "don't wanna be guinea pigs!"...

....

anyway, if i grow horns tomorrow you all will be the first to know.

sometimes life just goes in a circle

today suddenly had the urge to reconnect with some old friends.. found out some stuff.. felt quite sad. what i had predicted had come true after all.. it didn't end after we left. the new batch suffered the same fate as me. thinking back, i can remember the rage, the confusion, the disbelief at the extremeness sum ppl can go to, and i wouldn't hope it on any other. but life comes in a circle that doesn't stop. and this time it did not end up with someone as outwardly docile as i was. somehow, i feel sad for tigerlady too. coz i still believe that she does not really mean to hurt all the people that she has. so much has changed in just this short few months.. sigh..

all is not bad though. today i walked in and you suddenly asked me whether i was feeling better. that simple act of concern really touched me. i mean, we are not even close. and i just mentioned it in passing to ur hubby last night and u remembered. that simple sentence made my day even brighter than it originally was. suddenly i catch a glimpse of why ur hubby chose u, since i have not really known u well before this. sum ppl have a lot of opinions on who marry who and whether they think they should or not. but i see how well u two suit each other. i have learnt to see a little deeper. now i really don't mind getting to know you a little better. and thank you for making my day.=]

some drivers are nuts @.@

just came back from gold coast and tanjung sepat with my family, only to be told that our dustbin is successfully decapitated..

or rather.. that this car came way too fast.. banged the back of my neighbour's car parked outside their house.. reversed.. then banged our dustbin.. then zoomed off..

but now i think bout it.. if the front of the car is anywhere near as bad as my neighbour's backside.. it would be quite hard to zoom off.

this calls for an investigation.. reinterogation of eye witnesses..

except there were none.

so in the end.. there's just the banged up backside of my neighbour's car.. and wat's left of our dustbin.

i think i'll do something more productive.. like sorting out my photos. haha..

malaria's in town

today suddenly got ppl come to our housing area to test us all for malaria. it seems sum fella working at sarawak got it, so hey taman, you all gotta get tested.

first time i really sympathised with those diabetics who have to prick their fingers like 4 times a day to test their sugar level. one prick on my finger for malaria testing.. well.. not really painful, but still, not something i would wana do often.

and the way they treat the houses is quite different from fogging.. it's just some spraying of some odourless medication which needs to be dried. tadaa. we still went out of the house for a while though. with the fans on full blast.

so let's hope they don't come calling anything soon. then we'll be clear!;p

methadone experience

hmm.. one week at methadone.. quite interesting.

some patients are soooo cute!!! they can make u stutter during counseling. haha.

some are so nice they even tapau nasi lemak and beehoon to belanja us. even though we were quite scared to eat it.. got drugs added maybe?? but end up it was just fine.

M for methadone?

some complain when we dilute the methadone with more water to make it impossible for them to concentrate it for injection (no kick it seems.. but i thought methadone not supposed to give kick??)

some always come and hurry us.. faster faster gotta work.

there was this one time where a row of them, 5 actually, were handcuffed together. then when i called one name the whole row stood up and came forward. quite freaky. but then they had to orientate themselves in such a way that the person could sign, drink, with them moving accordingly like marionettes. i had to stop myself from laughing out loud.

for the first 3 days i parked far away purposely for fear of my car being scratched..
late once.. scratch!
tomorrow late again.. scratch!
horror of horrors...

but then my boss laughed at me. so after that i just zoomed in right next to the methadone building. they were so nice.. no scratch.. they even reminded me to turn off my lights. Lolzz..

then i also went to prison.. quite an experience. they actually don't just rot there in their cells while waiting for their time to be over. i learnt that they actually go through courses, then get to learn skills, and work for money after they are trustworthy enough. it must be like life-long BTN.. scary thought..

felt a bit bad when boss had to cramp into my small car though. and i was quite nervous. i mean, it's stressful enough to fetch ur boss to the prison since my driving skills weren't exactly very pro.. plus.. my tank was nearly empty.. wasn't quite expecting an extra trip that day. thought could top up on the way back home. but all went well though. thank goodness.

my boss even belanja me teh in prison. haha. that must be the first and last time i yamcha in prison.

all in all.. i quite enjoyed this week. no requirements to think about. plenty of packaging and recording, but not bad once you get the hang of it. didn't really touch my TDM stuff the whole week though.:( tomorrow must go back to work with extra zeal!

disorganisations! it there is such a word...

i am suddenly in a clearing mood.. sadly not one in which i feel motivated to type out all my TDM presentations or scour the internet for journals for research project though.. but motivated enough to clear the living room table.

i finally can't stand the dump it's becoming. imagine.. such a wide table.. full of all my books.. papers.. laptop..

organize organize!! clear clear!!

then hopefully i will be in a more efficient mode.

most probably i will just go to sleep though.

actually.. the only thought on my mind right now is that HEROES LOAD FASTER!!

musings~

sometimes i wonder...

we point our fingers at them and say they are this and that...

but actually..

aren't we just like them?

my boss must be getting shivers when he sees my number...

it's my second day at methadone and my boss was on leave. after a very stressful, crazy and busy first day.. he taught both of us how to assemble this and that, where everything was, how to do this and that.. then he left us saying.. if there's anything better to call me.

so today dawned...

the first problem.. he seemed alright.. talked us through.. told us what to do..

then the second.. and third.. and fourth..

anyway.. i can't really remember how many were there.. but i know there were at least 3 (or 4?) from me and one from my partner. that makes it... like almost a call every hour?　

but come to think of it.. it must not have been tat bad la.. coz i remember the first call was at 11sth.. and the last at 3sth.. but maybe it was quite a few in the space of a couple of hours.. anyhow.. his picking up voice was beginning to sound a bit fazed..

i mean. how can it be a holiday when u are demanded to think and process and come up with solutions reminded of work every time u get into something?

i mean. can u even take a nap?

or maybe u are sitting down to a most delightful meal and then ring ring..

or maybe the tv/game is at the most climatic moment and then ring ring..

or maybe working people on cuti don't do stuff like that.

i guess it'll be more practical stuff like going to the bank to pay up all ur bills and update ur account books or renew ur this and that or pay tax or sth and then ring ring..

in the bank.. if you're on the phone, the guard actually thinks you are plotting a robbery and will ask u to hang up. serious.

but enough of all this.. i should just leave people alone for some rest.

but i really duno how to deal with those sudden changes ma.. like patients supposed to come yesterday but come today then the chart shows he took away for yesterday....

or suddenly got spub stuff.. or patients appearing with letters saying they wana go hutan or go work or sth..

or that we can only give maximum 3 bottles..

or faxing stuff we don't have to jinjang?

sigh..

life is complicated..

golden hour

Today i drove home with the sky a golden splendour,
and colourful lights along the streets..

the way home has never looked so beautiful..

what do i have to say 3 hours before this year ends?

me? i have no old year resolutions.. new year resolutions..

just wana go by life block by block.

first was must graduate. now is must pass PRP.

but what the heck...

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

TDM stress

today was my first day of TDM. big boss not around, so andrew briefed us on what to do. really very grateful for that, else i would be so lost. even so, we had 7 cases today. 7! that's like the max that they encounter only occationally. what the heck, i guess it's all the better to train us up.

right now, with the thoughts of log book requirements, cases to clerk, case presentation this week?? or topic presentation? follow-up on results tomorrow?? on case for presentation?? post-natal tomorrow, medical chart inspections this week, my research cases to follow up... i'm feeling a mite stress. so i think i'll just grab my copy of undomestic goddess, reread it, laugh my guts out tonight, and have double stress tomorrow.

3 more hours to go only.. boohoo..

low

i have reached a stage where i really have no motivation to do anything. whether it be going out, or taking photos, or even calling up my friends. even though once i get to doing it (whether it being going out or meeting up with friends or taking shots or being in a conversation), i actually do enjoy it. but heck, sometimes i'm even lazy to answer the phone. am i morphing into a hermit or am i just growing old? and this is when all the bugging stuff creeps into my mind, driving me up the wall.

i am surrounded by contradiction.

i need to get a life.

when all you can do is wait for God to move

While i'm waiting by John Waller

How penang fattens up a person

first stop: we tried the famous beef kuay teow soup opposite bomba. the o jian not bad too.
clock tower
supper at song river, round 2: o jian, zhu hu kangkung, fried kuey teaw, lobak, roti babi, prawn fritters, chicken wings. yumm...
cute fella at hotel lobby
gurney hotel

up close n personal. and d next thing i saw thru d lens was It baring its sharp sharp teeth at me and press its hands on d ground (the action animals do just the second before they pounce). and thru the lens, i suppose It was so much bigger. i don't think i was that far away either since i don't have zoom lens. so well, to say the least, i let out an embarassing shriek.

next time i think i will only shoot close ups of animals with a zoom lens. lesson learnt.





dinner at the stall near aunt's place with my regular drink in penang - barley! really necessary for all the heaty food i will be taking.
dinner had nth special. but supper.. hehe.. here's song river round 1 - fried kuey teaw w'out egg, more damp, and with chilli. plus lobak and prawn fritters.
hotel breakfast.
we even had a flat tire to spice up our trip. no adventour is without its setbacks i presume.
day 2, lunch was at lorong selamat - my favourite ice kacang and kuey teaw soup. best eva! the supposedly famous but rude fried kuey teaw stall had her own shop nowadays, but we did't try it.

at the branch of ayer hitam's nutmeg shop
jelutong market
tea was the famous ayer hitam assam laksa. really didn't let me down. the side dishes fr the nearby stall was not bad also.
dinner was at a hawker centre opposite the methodist girls school or sth. ok la, nth special.
day 3: b'fast was dimsum at the foot of bukit bendera. seremban dimsum, no, dimsum at manchester is still the nicest. hehe..
fundicular tracks leading up to bukit bendera





this in a food court. simply unexpected.
mango salad from a thai stall .. not bad..



day 4: lunch at dunkin donut on the highway back home. quite a lot to digest given that we were all having diarrhoea. haha..

penang is heaven if u know where to go, and plain ordinary if you don't.

anyhow, i didn't bring much back, since i deposited most of what i gained from penang (food) in 11 episodes of diarrhoea on the way back, 7 of which occured within 3 hours. -.-"

so well, it must just mean that i ate well right? hehe..

frankly speaking, right now even the mention of food to me is quite a turn off. i think i have officially overdosed my self with food.

good for losing weight though.;p

alap and lin hui's b'day 2009

the day before, we gals went out for lunch and shopping first. hehe..



next day, we went to sing k as an undercover for our surprise.


when the cake suddenly came out, i do think they were surprised. haha.. it was a big kelam kabut though, coz we forgot to make sure one of us had the mike to sing the birthday song. but all in all, hope they all had a great time.=]






the guy version of 失落沙洲.. not bad also.^^




happy birthday lin hui and alap.=]