Friday, May 11, 2007

烟花

烟花
如此的美
却如此的短暂

for a friend~

To my beloved friend
Who has left for a better place

Silently you entered my life
Silently you left
You were a complete stranger one day
Then we clicked and entered into a beautiful friendship
Much laughter we shared together
Hard times we survived together
You taught me a lot of things
Courage… love… friendship…
How not to be so stubborn in life…
That I can’t be so selfish and spoilt and expect everything in life to go my way…
How to really care for a friend…
How to make new friends…
How to be responsible…
How to respect my parents…
How to give without expecting anything in return…
How to grow up and not be a baby forever…
How to chase after my dreams and really do something about it instead of wishing for it...
How not to be so stressed up about small things and just do my best…
You taught me how to be a friend
You showed me what a friend is
You taught me how to be happy,
By not focusing on problems, so that they would not become problems anymore
You taught me how to hold my temper
And not be so emotional
You taught me not to be so ‘dead’
To be short and precise
To appreciate my parents
You taught me that life is just what life is and to deal with it
That it comprises of both happiness and sadness
That it is the process that matters, not the product
That we have only one life and we must live it to the fullest
You showed me that I am stronger than I think
You taught me not to be afraid
Helped me through troubled times
You were there as I grew up
As I matured from the childish brat I was to who I am now
Hopefully a better person
You taught me that happiness can be found in small things
Taught me about humanities
About pleasures in helping other people
Simple pleasures which are so hard to see
But why did you leave without telling me?
Why did you not even say goodbye?
I woke up one day and you were gone
Just like that
Without even saying goodbye
And knowing that I will never ever see you again in this lifetime hurts
I miss talking with you
Miss everything about you
Miss knowing that I have a friend who really cares bout me
And now I’m on my own again
I will never forget all that you’ve taught me
And I will always keep memories of you close to my heart
I am who I am because of you
For that I am forever grateful
But the time has come for me to stand on my own two feet
I’m sure you will be happy for me wherever you are
And that you are happy
All I have of you left is just memories
Memories of better times
But I will be someone whom you will be proud of
I won’t let you down


悄悄的我到来。。
正如我悄悄的离去。。

quiz

Enough of all that mushy mushy stuff
So, what have we got here??
Let’s take a quiz…!!

It makes sunny days pour
It makes rainy days shine
It’s always a risk, which can tear you apart
Yet, without it, you can’t say that you really lived

It makes you extraordinarily happy
Yet it makes you ache in places you didn’t even know existed
It comes so quick and takes you unaware
It leaves so quick leaving you with a lifetime to miss

It creates memories for you to cherish and hold
Yet it is also these memories, which haunt you on lonely nights alone
It feels so real
Yet sometimes it is so hard to believe it exists

It exists
But is just so hard to find
When you try to grap hold of it
It nearly always slip right out of your grasp

Sometimes you think you have it
Sometimes you wish you have it
Sometimes you know you had it
Sometimes you wish you held on to it

It is just so hard to grasp
There is never a guarantee
There is no life warrantee
In fact, it molds your life
It makes you grow up
And hopefully, it makes you a better person for it

What is it?
You’re the smart one
You guess!=)

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

bukan dirimu yang salah - sahrul gunawan

Di saat ku terjaga kau getarkan hatiku
mengapa begitu cepat kau merunah hatimu
andai sejak dulu pasti kita tak begini

bukan dirimu yang salah bila tak bersatu
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喜欢

喜欢一个人
他快乐就好了
是这样吧

Tuesday, April 17, 2007

msn

青青纸巾,悠悠我心。

在msn上常看到一些很适合我心情的标题
在这里把他们给记下。。。

‘我不是因为寂寞才会想起你,而是在寂寞的时候想的只有你。’ - kok yoon-

‘On the endless sea of madness we sail forever more… - And the endless tears of sadness towards the distant shores..' -ray-

‘人生像钢琴,白色键盘是快乐,黑色键盘是悲伤,但记住,美丽的音乐需要有这两个颜色组成的。’ -kok yoon-

有一些挺好笑的。。比如。。

‘don't sweat the petty things, just pet the sweaty things' -francis-

有一次大家都在赶report时大家的标题都是这一类的。。。

'i love reports........not' -mei ling-

'i hate uti and pa2 reports' -pui kuan-

'so much to finish!!' -pui leng-

msn真的可以反映出一个人的心情。。。

Sunday, April 15, 2007

淡淡的悲伤涌上心头

短暂的欢乐
过后回到原初的悲伤
毫无意义的甜蜜
回到来还是面对回一片无声的墙
明明知道是这样
却以为自己接受得到
明明知道
却情不自禁。。。

Friday, April 13, 2007

favourite things ~ sound of music

Raindrops on roses and whiskers on kittens
Bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens
Brown paper packages tied up with strings
These are a few of my favorite things

Cream coloured ponies and crisp apple strudels
Doorbells and sleighbells and schnitzel with noodles
Wild geese that fly with the moon on their wings
These are a few of my favorite things

Girls in white dresses with blue satin sashes
Snowflakes that stay on my nose and eyelashes
Silver white winters that melt into springs
These are few of my favorite things

When the dog bites, when the bee stings,
when I'm feeling sad
I simply remember my favorite things
and then I don't feel
so bad

问世间情为何物。 。 。

问世间、情为何物,只教生死相许?

天南地北双飞客,老翅几回寒暑。

欢乐趣,离别苦,就中更有痴儿女。

君应有语,渺万里层云,千山暮雪,只影向谁去?

横汾路,寂寞当年箫鼓,荒烟依旧平楚。

招魂楚些何嗟及,山鬼暗谛风雨。

天也妒,未信与,莺几燕子俱黄土。

千秋万古,为留待骚人,狂歌痛饮,来访雁丘处。

Friday, April 06, 2007

reminiscence

suddenly miss being in the band.. i still remember the feeling when we performed the final song conducted by the fat cute teacher. forgot his name oredy. haha.. i remember it all sounded quite horrible during the practice. not that we practised much on that song anyway. i can't even remember which song it was, but it was a nice song. i remember going up to join the main band for practice and seeing them play saxaphone and trumpets and trombones for the first time, also witnessing the 'real' disciplin in band for the first time. man, it was fun. then when they called us to perform separately, as in 1st strings, 2nd strings, we sounded quite horrible too, especially the high notes. haha.. but the miracle was, when we all combined, we sounded fantastic. so nice.. and the feeling of being a part of the music was simply awesome. it was like.. we all merged into 1 voice, 1 sound. but i still can't remember the song. ;p

Monday, April 02, 2007

我会好好的~

我会好好的,花还香香的,
世界一直去,回忆真美丽

我是想着你,一直想着你,
你在我心底,变成了秘密

不要说你爱我,你想我,
如果你的心里没有这么做
只是勉强的敷衍我,
我知道了会很难受。

不许勉强的安慰我 说奇怪的理由。
到现在还是深深的深深的爱着你
是爱情的友情的都可以,
那是我心中的幸福,

Monday, March 26, 2007

矛盾

那天驾车去sunway遇到个路霸,虽然表现冷静,还跟他道歉,其实心中都几怕下。奇怪的事,身边的朋友还很佩服我那么镇定。哈。
那天过后我才发现,原来我已训练到自己能把自己心中的感觉隐藏到那么好。
心中伤痛时却表现出微笑
心中似乎被刀割成碎片时还能装出一幅若无其事,坚强的样子。
我真得越来越假le...
还是这是生存下去的唯一条路。。。?

Tuesday, March 20, 2007

untitled

what's the point of going on
when you can't see into my heart?
But there's alwayz this fear of having you gone
accepting the loneliness is just too hard

who can see me when i'm invisible?
or do i have to morph into a butterfly?
but such things are so shallow and feeble
with time they'll just fade and die...

it hurts me when you smile but don't mean it
feel nothing for me but just fake it
when everything you do
don't mean a thing to you

i have reached a stage beyond tears
a stage where i have to face all my fears
if it means a life without you
at least i'll try to live it to the full

Monday, March 19, 2007

hairy dick cheer

before i forget it, i better write it down first.. haha!
coz i oredy forgot my samba yeah cheer! OMG!! almost kena belasah from pc.heheh..

we are.. hairy dick (x2)
soft like jelly
hard like brick
you can touch
you can lick

we make you
ah ah ah ah x2

say...
hairy dick!!

kinda obscene, but well, that's orientation.^^

tokyo drift cheer:

wonder if you know
bout the group rite here you know
when you see us horny buggers then you know you have to go

hairy dicky....
dick! dick! dick! dick! x2

samba yeah cheer:

who's gonna rock up all night long
we are
yeah
we are
yeah
who's gonna stand and beat the rest
samba
what??
samba
who??
samba yeah!!!

张栋梁-痛彻心扉

回忆充满整个房子
我们的住处
围困我笑也不会茶也不思
一个人恍恍又惚惚
相爱的国度里没有人居住
回忆混乱我的脚步
阻碍了出路
证明了你的自私你的贪图
残忍的看着我无助
平淡的回应我虚假的无辜
痛彻心扉记忆的伤一寸一寸像你的冷酷
否定我这些日子以来的付出
告诉我不再需要有我来保护
不能睡的痛楚不知名的愤怒
不能上诉只能安静的痛哭

nick lachey~

An empty room can be so deafening,
The silence makes you wanna scream,
It drives you crazy.

I chased away the shadows of your name,
And burned the picture in a frame,
But it couldn't save me.

And how could we quit something we never even tried,
Well you still can't tell me why.
We built it up, To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.

I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what your looking for.

But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore. ...
I can't hate you anymore.

Your not the person who you used to be,
The one I want who wanted me,
And that's a shame but,

There's only so many tears that you can cry.
Before it drains the light right from your eyes,
And I can't go on that way.

And so I'm letting go of everything we were,
It doesn't mean it doesn't hurt.

We built it up, To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.

You walked away,
You stole my life,
Just to find what your looking for.

But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.

Sometimes you hold so tight,
It slips right through your hands.
Will I ever understand?

We built it up, To watch it fall.
Like we meant nothing at all.
I gave and gave the best of me,
But couldn't give you what you need.
You walked away, You stole my life,
Just to find what your looking for.

But no matter how I try,
I can't hate you anymore.

假装 - jolin

呼吸着一种孤独的味道
心跳在你沉默以后慢慢的被淡忘掉
我笑了笑反正你看不到
我要的幸福
遗落在你怀抱
当爱失了焦
那些最初的美好
早被你搁在一角
街上拥挤人潮
走着看着都是摧眠符号
记忆停不了
穿过读你的心跳
穿过想你的味道
我只想不被打扰
假装多好我只要
只想要再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱
一直会让我依靠
继续等待
还心甘情愿的不想逃
当爱失了焦
那些最初的美好
早被你搁在一角
街上拥挤人潮
走着看着都是摧眠符号
记忆停不了
穿过读你的心跳
穿过想你的味道
我只想不被打扰
假装多好我只要
只想要再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱
一直会让我依靠
继续等待
心甘情愿不想逃
假装多好依然是
依然是暧昧的tone调
一个人无理取闹
两人世界的煎熬
我被自己困在自己设下的圈套
像是驼鸟
相信时间是唯一解药
视而不见
傻到了无可救药
其实早明了
你的爱已随风飘
想要找
再也找不到
假装多好我只要
只想要再拥有一秒
去相信你的拥抱
还心甘情愿的不想逃
假装多好依然是
依然是暧昧的tone调
一个人无理取闹
两人世界的煎熬
我被自己困在自己设下的圈套
假装自己
已解开冰冷的手铐

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

orientation of P107

i had a really busy week, absolutely no time to study. but, i don't regret signning up to be oo for hairy dick. really! what i got in return for my time was human relationship, fun, friendship.. i feel so protective for them, just don't want them to get hurt in any way..
this fragile bond that we have formed.. how long will it last? i suppose it's too naive of me to think that it will last forever, but well, one can only hope. samba yeah didn't really manage to stay together after orientation. we sort of drifted apart. hairy dick seems more 'together'. so well, maybe after all..
lotz of things happened at the end tho.. the 'K' problem and the 'C' problem. thank goodness one was solved, but well, the 'K' problem is not i guess. the whole group of us with us girls in our heels actually climbed up all the way to the globe to console K when we got 2nd. together with the dick, the banner, two hampers and 1 trophy. it was fun there tho. took lotz of crazy pictures. after that, our clubbing plan changed to all-nite-long red box instead at sunway there. damn tired man.
after 2 days i thought he finally came out of it, but last night my poor junior kena blasted by him for no apparent reason. what i really can't stand is him taking it out on the juniors. coz they really dunno anything de ma.. ai..
hope everything gets sorted out before it gets too late with too much damage done..

Monday, March 05, 2007

转变~

一起送出去的礼物还未打开
之间却有了微妙的改变
是好是坏?
是我疯了吗?
还是是唯一的选择?
或许是逃不掉的命运。。。
我成长了吗?
坚强的我。。快出现啊。。

Friday, February 23, 2007

another new year...

一个新年又这样过了...接下来又回到个自繁忙的生活.唉... 希望能再次相逢! 大家加油哦! =)

Monday, February 12, 2007

the most wonderful valentine~

i believe it is not in material presents,
but rather,
seeing your loved one rush back to a waiting you after his meeting
cooking a loving meal to dine together in the warm comfort of home
the warm, happy feeling when two people are together
getting up earlier to prepare breakfast
a protective hand over your shoulder in the crowded train
having someone worry when the queue at the ladies is long
the small gestures that show that he cares or worries bout you
being able to choose new clothes together
sharing a meal together
walking home together
trying out new clothes together
the way you just look at each other and smile
or being at ease with each other and doing some normal activities
rushing home to deliver lunch for a hungry someone
or even just an indirect acknowledgement that you are someone special to him

valentine's day is not feb 14
if you love each other
i really believe now, that
everyday can be valentine's day

i had a chance to have 3 of such days
almost perfect, just with some slight disturbances in the middle
but i'm glad i sorted out my problems so that it did not spoil the rest of our time together

there is a saying:
快乐是属于那些,会把快乐放大,把问题缩小,的人。

不要想太多,真的会开心点。因为很多时候语气不好只是因为累。
人在身边时就看到很清楚。不在身边时,就要懂得相信他。
这就是基本的原则吧。

快乐是在自己的手中的。
如果你选择快乐
你就真的会快乐。 =)

Thursday, February 08, 2007

三年了,我总该学会了吧!

每次发生, 也不是我的错。而是有别的因素。 别的很正常的理由。
所以我真的该别想太多,自造麻烦了。
相信他就可以了。=)

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

the cave

one fine day i saw a most adorable puppy in my whole entire life. it had soft brown eyes, a kind nature and was as charming as could be. just playing with the puppy melted my heart into puddles and puddles of blood. one day, the puppy suddenly fell sick. i was worried sick, but there was nothing much i could do. even the vet could not tell what was wrong with my dear puppy. i tried my best to shower dear puppy with lotz of TLC. and it seemed to touch puppy's heart.

SUDDENLY...

one day.. puppy ran away into the woods..
i followed and followed, trying to find puppy. sometimes i could see puppy from afar. sometimes i lost track of puppy. sometimes puppy ignored me and slept and slept. finally puppy disappeared into a dak and scary cave..

i was left alone and floundering outside, wondering what was wrong with puppy, worrying that puppy would fall even more ill, worrying that puppy did not want me around anymore..

i waited and waited for days on end. to no avail. worries were my constant companions. fears flooded my dreamz. tears seemed glued to my face. i couldn't seem to shake them loose. and the wait continued..

i couldn't take it any longer..

or i will die!!!

at least i thought so.

so one day after so many days, i knocked at the cave opening...

the sleeping puppy just opened one eye and glared at me. however, undauted, i ventured one step forward into the cave.

i forgot the most important rule!!! any girl who walks into the cave will die a most terrible death!!!

anyway, i wasn't dead yet. so i walked in and started talking to dear puppy. however, dear puppy wastn't at all polite and only grunted in the correct places. at last, I COULD'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!! i asked........

i asked what was bothering puppy. Oops! wrong question!
puppy immediately morphed into a most fearsome dragon and blow mouthful after mouthful of fire at me, the fire so strong that it completely blew me out of the cave and out of the woods. wow, it was so great the whole of the woods burnt down. so now it's just a lone fearsome cave surrounded by a blackened area.

oh ya. what became of me? i turned into a roasted turkey.

and now, with my poor scorched fingers, or what's left of them anyway, i type what i learnt to anyone who cares to learn..

never ever venture into the cave.

just let them rot there, for all i care.

if you read john gray's book you will understand.

Monday, February 05, 2007

when things go down...

they really go down...

and there's nothing i can do about it...

Monday, January 29, 2007

a matter of trust

recently i told myself that i will be optimistic in everything that happens for 7 days. I've always heard that it takes a week to create a habit. well. i tried. it was hard at first. i had to constantly remind myself of my decision. 7 days came and went. i wasn't really up all the time. sometimes i was still quite moony. but relatively less than usual. now, i think that being positive really makes me happier.

last time i always did what other people expected me to do.
now i do what i feel is right, do my best, and don't expect anything in return.

last time i always doubted him, even though he never did stray
now i just trust him. no matter what happens. and then i realised.. he is still there. and he is trying his best.

everybody just has their own different way of showing that they care. but what is love without trust? i didn't know that i hurt him everytime i doubted him. so trust, and accepting him as he is, even though it's hard sometimes, proved to be so much better for our relationship.

i believe happiness is your own responsibility.

it's all in the mind.
it's all about how you think.
it's all your own choice.

so... be happy! =)

Saturday, January 13, 2007

smile!!

笑一笑,
没什么事情过不了。 =)

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Thursday, December 07, 2006

penang~

还好啦。。 除了吃,还是吃。哈哈。。

映像最深刻的是有一天晚上,我刚到 song river 吃。吃饱了走着出去时,我看到一个男子边笑边吃。开始我觉得。。 哇,这个人不错。吃到这样开心。过后才看到原来他手上拿着相机,在录着自己吃satay, 还说:mmm,真得很好吃。。

有时我想,他到底是怎样的人?

是一个人吃一个人来槟城玩吗?好像有点可怜,有点凄凉。不过他却还能很开心。。

是录了过后给女朋友看吗?或许他们刚好那天晚上不能在一起,他把吃satay的过程录下来给他看??真甜蜜哦。。

不过在我的想象中我还是比较喜欢想像说他是一个虽然孤单但很坚强的人。=)

Thursday, November 02, 2006

study break

hmm.. study break and what am i doing?? knitting... haha..
i'm in a knitting frenzy now, rushing to finish a pair fo gloves for him. first, it was too big, now i'm afraid it'll be too small. still working on it. my physio is so dead. .

raya hols was great, got to meet up with my rarely-seen friends. we went to pd for a day trip, then went yamcha another day. i'll upload the pics when i have time. now, i have no time. haha.. too busy knitting. =)

Monday, October 09, 2006

sem 2 coming to an end...

this sem has been quite fun, come to think of it.
putting aside all the projects and assignments, for the rest of the time we were just busy thinking of whether wana go to midvalley or timesquare. haha..

this sem we went to midvalley god knows how many times, went for cell outing, discovered the passage connecting sg wang and timesquare, discovered food everywhere, including jalan kuchai lama and old klang road, tom yam in sri petaling, sg besi pasar malam & no. 1 claypot chicken rice (which i haven't had a chance to try yet) ...

i got obsessed with a type of pants, so now i have 3. haha.. this is wat i call obsession. actually i got obsessed with quite a number of things, but i can only remember the pants and the cute tortoise thing. i actually bought 1 for myself already, then i saw them selling blue and pink tortoises another day in pasar malam. due to my excessive undecidedness, i didn't buy. so i had to drive all the way back through all the jam to buy the two pathetic tortoises.

in midvalley one day, i actually saw my favourite contestant in malaysia's 'i want to be model' with her boyfriend i think. my goodness, her body was so unbelievably perfect and she was so pretty. but then again, she was only kicked out coz she was too short to be a model. ai...

i went to see imu cup events: only football and cheerleading. i wanted to see basketball too, but i didnt know where it was. they said it was far better than football though, aside from all the eye candy.

cheerleading was fantastic. pharmacy won! i always thought they were the best anyway. our batch was very supportive. we made confetti to throw down from the 1st floor at the end of their performance. the guys even painted their purple t-shirts to spell out the word 'PHARMACY' so creative of them. the banner was very nice too.

so... what else..?? well, i am currently broke beyond broke. if jpa will really increase our money i guess that will be a dream come true.

i'm so happy these few days. my relationship with my fren can be considered stable, peaceful and happy. got to see him in this whole sem more than the entire year before. haha..
really feel happy. i guess it is me. as long as i don't think too much and don't be unrealistically demanding, and if i trust him, really trust him, happiness isn't that far around the corner.
of course, the book really helped. "men are from mars and women are from venus- by john gray"

i still have 2 weeks of class before 3 weeks of study break. then i will have 1 day of exam. hey, that's finals wei. kinda idiotic rite?

so this week, monday, that is today, we are eating at tast walking then watching our own movie. we've been having our own movie marathon watching on my laptop in my room with the lights off. so far, we've watched what a girl wants, monster house and blue lagoon, which caused us much entertainment. especially my housemate. haha...

tues is pasar malam day. i hope to be able to but a tortoise hp case i saw last week. (note: obsession)

wed we are going to the gray and amour then eating at old klang road.

thurs go sunway, sat go times square and sg wang and isetan. fri unknown yet. sunday?? well, i guess i'll hav to study bm and eng, coz my tests start next week monday.

gotta go now. since i discovered the scanner in the library i have been waiting for this day. ~
i'll upload some pictures when i find time.