DaNcin' in the R@in

confusion...

2012-01-09T22:57:00.002+08:00

why is it always either too much or too little?

why can't it be just nice?

why doesn't it feel right?

is it? or is it not?

decisions to be made. answers not yet found. SOS, God..

musings of 10 years before..

2011-03-23T20:58:00.003+08:00

right now i'm having the beginnings of a headache, with aching bones and intensive futsal training ahead. lolz.. i so wana just jump into bed and go to sleep, not wondering whether i should start reading a chapter of sarawak handbook a day or devise some sort of plan that precludes working, eating, playing, facebook-ing, drama-ing and sleeping so that i can fill my brain a little.

i've been mechanically going to work and coming home everyday, and suddenly i realise i've been a frp for half a freaking year. gosh, why don't i feel more adequate?

but i digress..

the main idea propelling me to revisit my blog was so because i was suddenly reminded of life as it was 10 years ago, when we were in form 5 and 17 and young.

ah those were the days...

i think back to how i thought life would be in the future.. and it is so not like what it is now.

i think back to what i thought was so important then.. and well, some still is, like friendship. exams..? err well, let's not talk about exams since we are finally beyond their bind. woohoo..

i think of tears shed over love lost. well, i now see the meaning of the phrase "what can't kill you makes you stronger".

somehow it saddens me to know that certain paths will no longer cross. that relationships will drift apart inevitably.

everyone has made their various decisions over the path of time, leading them to where they are now, to who they are now. some leading accomplished lives, some leading simple but happy lives, some still searching.

and i can sense a lot of red bombs landing soon.

we are who we are. life is good. the laughter shared over all these years are still echoing in my ears. the tears, i choose to forget.

life might not have turned out as what i always planned. in fact, it turned out better than i could have ever imagined. i realise that paths will cross and paths will part. that's the way of life. i'm saddened by the parting that always happens, but since there's nothing i can do bout it, i will just treasure the moments all the more deeply, all tucked in their respective pockets in my heart.

cheers everyone.

may everyone have a good life. ^^

smooth dance moves~~

2011-02-01T21:44:00.003+08:00

i know i've been away from blogging for like ages.. but this song drives me crazy and i just gotta share.

lengzai.. malaysian.. with such fluid and smooth dance moves.. can't see this enough times ^^

Oh baby 看着我 快乐不再沉默

因为能见你 阳光好温柔

还不到一分钟 你早镇住了我

加快我 告白的冲动

你温柔的笑容 腼腆中打倒我

一阵莫名幸福深深撼动着

你笑着对我说 怎么你还不懂

好人卡只配好朋友

这个时候 你送给我 好人卡哦！成了迷惑

你的喜欢 友情以上 恋人未满 没有答案

可是你说的喜欢我知道不是爱上

我有很多话很想跟你讲 listen up

我可以 为了你 坚定不移放逐我自己

因为我爱着你 因为我爱着你

我可以 惊天动地怒放向全世界宣誓

爱上你完美了一切

我可以 日日夜夜为你写首爱的诗句

因为我爱着你 因为我爱着你

多么想永远和你在一起

你温柔的笑容 腼腆中打倒我

一阵莫名幸福深深撼动着

你笑着对我说 怎么你还不懂

好人卡只配好朋友

我的手中 用力紧握 好人卡哦！还是迷惑

你的喜欢 友情以上 恋人未满 没有答案

可是那2012的预言你慌不慌

趁它来临前 我只想跟你讲 listen up

我可以 为了你 坚定不移放逐我自己

因为我爱着你 因为我爱着你

我可以惊天动地怒放向全世界宣誓

爱上你完美了一切

我可以 日日夜夜为你写首爱的诗句

因为我爱着你 因为我爱着你

多么想永远和你一起

我可以 为了你 坚定不移放逐我自己

因为我爱着你 因为我爱着你

我可以惊天动地怒放向全世界宣誓

爱上你完美了一切

我可以 日日夜夜为你写首爱的诗句

因为我爱着你 因为我爱着你

多么想永远和你一起

我只想永远和你一起~

frp day 1

2010-09-29T22:31:00.002+08:00

i got back into htjs. not to say very elated, not to say very sad. my parents are the happiest though. i suppose i should feel very blessed, actually. since there are places far more ulu where there's no internet, no water, and petrol costs will end up high as well as car maintenance for driving through the bumpy stone roads.

so anyway, here i am now starting as full-time warfarin mtac pharmacist and to take over the orthopedic wards 4B and 2B. in actual fact.. i'm scared.. i don't feel like i know a heck of a lot. i don't feel confident in myself. sigh.. most importantly, i must make sure i do not harm any patient in any way, or i will never forgive myself.

whatever it is, here's to the future.

my new motto for this year:
don't demand respect. earn it.

lOst

2010-09-21T22:29:00.003+08:00

with all that's been happening around me recently,
i suddenly feel a bit lost..
i seem to have lost my bearings..
tottering on the brink of uncertainty

of who I am

of what I am

of where to go

of my future, my dreams

change.. partings.. changes in roles..

I feel loss

I am lost.

I am all alone.

points of interest in these two days...

2010-09-17T16:54:00.003+08:00

1. bukit tinggi is freakin hot. is this global warming?

2. after like 2 years away from kl, i accidentally took the lrt instead of monorail.. so end up need to walk a long long way to low yat. in the rain somemore.. along the way, met this ang moh who asked me, pointing to my umbrella.. "where can i buy the parachute?"

wow.. now that i think bout it, there is some resemblance between those two..

3. some people actually prefer night call to A&E. i was supposed to work night call tonight and A&E on sunday. now i get to work A&E 8-5pm for both sat and sun instead. at least my internal 'clock' won't be jumbled up.=] working weekend sucks though.. if not i can go meet tortugana and maybe evileyn this weekend.. :(

4. was wearing my P106 t-shirt and shorts today and passed by some saleman. he had to ask.. are you over 18? ><

5. my camera oh my camera.. why are my pictures corrupted sometimes?? nikon says camera no problem.. memory card might or might not be the problem.. most probably computer problem.. huh?

6. i'm super freakin broke now.. :..( need to start saving some money...

1 year....

2010-08-01T15:26:00.002+08:00

i hadn't realised it, but today i heard someone mention 1st Aug, then wham it all came back to me.. it's been 1 year, since she's gone, 1 year, where i kept myself busy working and working.. sometimes as i go through life, i come across something, and i can imagine her cute reaction. then i can't help but smile to myself. man, i miss her.. i do not know if i can ever become as strong and smart and courageous as she is, but there's no harm trying right? so there she is being good neighbours with my brother.. and i miss them both. hope both of them are happy up there. till we meet again..

Choices...

2010-07-13T23:48:00.003+08:00

if i could choose, where would my destiny lie..?

sometimes having a choice, or what somewhat figures for a choice, is harder than none..

feels like a stress-induced gastric coming....

let's hope tomorrow goes well.. i need some wisdom here..

说了再见。。。

2010-05-30T19:41:00.003+08:00

  天亮了 雨下了 你走了
 清楚了 我爱的 遗失了
 落叶飘在湖面上睡著了

 想要放 放不掉 泪在飘
 你看看 你看看不到
 我假装过去不重要 却发现自己办不到

 说了再见 才发现再也见不到
 我不能就这样失去你的微笑

 口红待在桌脚 而你我找不到
 若角色对调你说好不好

 说了再见 才发现再也见不到
 能不能就这样忍著痛泪不掉

 说好陪我到老 永恒往哪里找
 再次拥抱一分一秒都好

 天亮了 雨下了 你走了
 清楚了 我爱的 遗失了
 落叶飘在湖面上睡著了

 想要放 放不掉 泪在飘
 你看看 你看看不到
 我假装过去不重要 却发现自己办不到

 说了再见 才发现再也见不到
 我不能就这样失去你的微笑

 口红待在桌脚 而你我找不到
 若角色对调你说好不好

 你的笑 你的好 脑海里 一直在绕
 我的手 忘不了 你手的温度

 心碎了一地 捡不回从前的心跳
 伤心过去我无力逃跑

 说再见 才发现再也见不到
 能不能就这样忍著痛泪不掉

 说好陪我到老 永恒往哪里找
 再次拥抱一分一秒都好....

转圈圈

2010-05-29T19:15:00.001+08:00

是时候面对事实了

为什么为什么为什么。。。

去睡觉算了。。

face to face with H1N1

2010-05-24T19:08:00.002+08:00

it was 4.30pm and there came a call to teach MDI inhaler technique in 8C. it didn't hit me at first that that was the isolation ward until the SN said the patient was H1N1 positive.

shudders..

well, i guess i didn't have much of a choice. given the timing and knowing that most probably the name will just hang there in the office, i went up, postponing my article review for tomorrow.

the robing was quite fun actually, ignoring the fact that i put the robe the opposite way first time round. when i got up there there were actually TWO patients, not one. just my luck. i guess this has to do with my bad habit of having spares. now fate is mocking me.

but i digress.

so anyway, the robing was quite fun. there was the robe, shoe cover, gloves, head cover, N95 (i put on a normal mask too for double protection). not too bad, i could still breathe.

i had to robe myself 2 times since after each patient i had to throw everything into the yellow bin.

first patient was quite fast since she did not have the inhaler with her, so all i could do was show her the leaflet and try to explain. gosh i hope they don't call again tomorrow. :S

second patient was quite a harrowing experience. she didn't wear her mask. she kept coughing. i tried hard not to visualise the tiny bugs flying out of her mouth and wafting across my face in the room. gosh.. can they even penetrate through skin? or mucosal membranes? or enter through pimples on my face??? open wounds wei.....:( half my face and eyes are not covered. they should make some kind of mask so that i'm fully coated.:(

and so she coughed and coughed and coughed.. sigh..

then since i had to reassess her technique, i had to ask her to exhale.. sigh.. all the bugs flying out.. :S :S i had to demonstrate inhaling, through the mask of course, but even then i shudder to think if the bugs can penetrate the mask then i'm inhaling them deep down into my lungs...

sigh.... tonight i cannot sleep dy..

h/o's... ><'''

2010-05-22T18:11:00.003+08:00

i can never understand how they think..

went to the ward to collect data for my research. all i need is to search the census for ugib cases, then have a peak at the bht to see whether it's due to forrest I or II ulcers, then a few minutes will do to complete my survey form.

scenario 1: hmm.. bed 22.. bed 22.. where's bed 22? oh that h/o is holding it. i observe for a while. he's just hugging the file close to his chest while following the m/o on their rounds. he's not doing anything to it, not looking at it, but just holding it. and they are rounding some other beds. after a while, the h/o walks to the back of the ward, talks a bit, still holding to that file. so i approach him and ask politely whether i can use the file for a while. he looks at me like i'm rubbish (he knows who i am since i was attached there for a while) then he asks: WHY? okay... so i explain.. just for a while to jot down some details for research. then he creases his brow, looks totally irritated, and says: NOT NOW. then walks away. wth? No. 1: so rude. No.2: not like he's using it anyway.

so i follow him around at some distance like some puppy. and it's so obvious that he's not using it. the fact dawned on him too but will he pass it to me? nooooo... after hugging the file and following the round for some time, he finally took the file and put it on the trolley. gah.. cannot admit he was hogging it by passing to me? anyways, i didn't even take 5 minutes.

Scenario 2: i needed the file for just like 1 minute to check whether is ugib due to ulcer or not, file's at the counter, h/o says wait. fair enough, they had to use it to confirm something over the phone. after that, another doc turn it facing me to check something, then they were done with the file. i tried to sneak a peek at the yellow ogds finding page to see the diagnosis, then this h/o turned the whole file around, purposely i think, just to leaf through it. waa.. then i had to read upside down as he leafed through.

sigh...

is cervarix or gardasil really neccessary??

2010-05-20T22:17:00.002+08:00

been wondering for some time.. to take or not to take.. if take, which brand.. seems like both has quite a high incidence of side effects.. although most people are fine. mom's freaking out at the thought of taking the vaccine.. putting thoughts of death rates into my head. a brief search on internet and now apart from death, got paralysis, bells palsy etc swimming in my head. i'm just wondering.. will i regret it if i don't take it? sigh... my mind's a blunder.. and i'm not getting younger. 26 will come all too soon.. :(

i should know better..

2010-05-16T22:29:00.000+08:00

but it hurts all the same..

为何生活那么乏味。。。？

2010-04-28T17:51:00.002+08:00

最近不知为何生活那么纳闷

每天要做的事堆积如山
没完没了

每早上到ward，就得赶紧乘医生还没开始round就把所有病人的医药历史纪录好。

访问一个病人，或许一分钟（若病人没什么病），或许15分钟（若病人多多病）。那只是1个病人耶。一天通常都会有7-8新病人，可是九点多医生就开始round了。

round 时医生或许会当我透明（最好不过了），或许会问我些找得到答案的问题，又或许会给我一些很高难度的journal去找。

round完了，就得教病人如何打塘尿针，或如何用气喘的pump。

每天还得详细记录与研究3份病人的档案。

每个星期要更深入研究1个case, 要不然就会被炸到残残。

这4个星期里，几乎一有时间都只是在预备case,一天3个的档案全还没动，算算都有60等着我去研究。天啊。。。之后还有2个礼拜还没来呢。。。

现在新老板又换了制度，更多晚班了，更多周末得上班了，而且得上更长的时间，过后只能用那些时间拿假，不过以我们繁忙的工作，偶尔拿假也未必拿到。

如果那一站不够人手，难道还能拿假？如果那一站的工做不完，难道还能拿假？到最后也是成为了免费送给老板, cheap labour.. ><

虽然觉得工作蛮有意义，有好多东西学，但却感到非常非常的累。

我下半辈子就得这么过吗？？？想到都冒冷汗。

有时会觉得，别行业的都不能了解我们的繁忙，痛苦，压力。

顿时在众多朋友家人甚至教会朋友当中觉得莫名的孤独。

唯一的安慰是当我看见实习医生们，我上班前他们已在，我下班后他们仍然还在，才觉得我还不算最累的。

顿时感到心情好遭。。。

when life throws lemons..

2010-03-28T14:58:00.003+08:00

working this morn was not too bad..

after that, went for lunch. went to try the 'famous' tow kee opposite yellow bus stand. gosh..

1. so hot
2. so slow
3. the tauke face like thunder
4. the maid so slipshot, clean table also leave plenty of mess
5. the tauke keep screaming at her maid
6. ordered medium, maid gave big, said no medium exists. when pay time was charged for big, on the wall clearly stated got medium.
7. can hear the ppl at the table in front of me (1 face as black as thunder, 1 keep apologizing for bringing them there) complain to each other: wait so long already lo. wait so long so little ah!!

food was not bad. service and environment totally sucked. so glad i went alone.

got a certain ambiguous vibe from someone.. not sure what i should be feeling or how i should react. not sure what this fella wants also. but a single word can turn my orderly life into disarray.

weather is so hot! feel so sweaty!

3 cars cut me very very close at the junction after toll right before they have to go up the flyover. stupid ppl. if wana cut, please don't cut so close. and 3 somemore 1 after another. i know u all very teror.. very geng.. always take the outer lane to skip all the cars then cut in just before u have to go on the flyover. Stupid humbugs. please don't cut so close when i'm not driving particularly slow and when i have the right of the road.

came home.. some brainless person park right in front of my house door somemore. then i have to park far far away then walk into my own home. under the hot scorching sun.

went online.. saw some stuff. sometimes i dunno is it my problem or others.

just really tak syok and boh mood right now.

i know i should take all the lemons and make it into lemonade..

but now i'm just too fired up.

don't mess with me. please.

S'ban f00d... where to get da BEST!

2010-03-27T16:50:00.006+08:00

gotta faster get it all down before what alap said seeps out from my brain. this is just based on what i like or what ppl around me like. seremban folks or non-seremban folks, feel free to add to this list any recommendations or local favourites.=]

SIEW PAO

Seremban siew pao! duno where's the best though..

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

BEEF NOODLE 牛肉粉

Original at market, haven't tried yet.

Kemayan square outlet - nice! got air con!

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

CRAB

Seremban siew hai 芙蓉烧蟹 - i haven't tried yet.. malunya..

日升 opposite ming kok - lousy attitude though..

next to 食街 in lobak - also has 鱿鱼米粉

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

FISH HEAD BEE HOON 鱼头米粉

leong kee at Sikamat!! they have home made fish balls too~~ nice and peppery!

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

HAKKA MEE

Tow Kee opposite yellow bus stand - according to alap is the best..

Tow Kee in market - according to lin hui is the best..

shack on drain beside chan wa main - according to me is the best.. keke.. but then i haven't tried the one opposite yellow bus stand.

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

CHICKEN RICE/DUCK/CHAR SIEW/SIEW YOKE

锦记 wai yean's shop near yellow bus stand - duck, char siew, everything you want! nice!

发记 fatt kei - after traffic lights after klinik pergigian, got black char siew!

ah Paw - opposite tarot cafe at lobak

duck rice same row as hong kong noodle and fish shop.;p

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

FISH BALL NOODLE 鱼圆粉

Jalan lisam at shops beside JKN

restaurant OK at lobak

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

NASI LEMAK

opposite temiang polis station at limbok!!

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

PAN MEE

Mummy's pan mee at kemayan square for afternoon - curry, spicy..

Rasah 泉记 for night - ma lak! some ppl like it pedas pedas pedas..

hehe..

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

LAKSA

Asia laksa - at rahang kecil and senawang.. i will and must try one day!

Laksa at kemayan square - a bit pricey, but i think the see ham very fresh and nice.

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

BAK KUT TEH

Temiang on the left in between traffic lights for yee poh and traffic lights out of temiang.. according to alap. what's the name dy ah?

era square - got dry version, wet version, 猪脚醋

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

CLAYPOT RICE

shack on left before row of shops with hong kong noodles

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

MIXED RICE 杂饭

rasah opposite hosp

blossom food court

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

BALLS

rahang.. on the left.. in a shack somewhere near 财记, duno which comes first.

yee poh - meat ball, tendon ball, fish ball..

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

PRAWN NOODLE SOUP

Pence food court! nearest to penang style to be found in seremban

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

WAN TAN MEE

opposite klinik bee and eu yan sang in town - my favourite!^^

明记 in market - lin hui's fav..

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

PORK NOODLE 猪肉粉

behind OCBC bank.. now no more dy.. sob.. duno where they went.. anyone knows??

Pence food court..

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

ALL SORT OF NOODLES

Hong Kong noodle - curry with their homemade mee, sui gao with green mee, 滑鸡河粉..

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

CHAR KUEY TEAW

Victory at Oakland

FS kopitiam

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

SEAFOOD

still need to go to PD...

yi tong..

jia jia..

restaurant on the right at traffic lights before indian temple if coming from s'ban, opposite some bank..

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

DAI CHAO 大炒

Opposite permai 3.. the oat prawns.. yum yum..

fei zhai - salad yao zhar guai..

lucky - curry in bread..

hua cheng 花城 - claypot lou shi fun, gu lou yok

seremban garden

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

PORRIDGE

kemayan square - be careful how u order though.. if not very pricey. best is kong pou 田鸡!

teo chew porridge in town, same row as RHB bank and KFC

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

TOMYAM

temiang ming kei food court - according to boon san.

opposite alap's house in rasah - according to alap.

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

TONG SUI

泉记 at rasah~

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

BREAD

opposite yee poh.. the 餐包 is the BEST!

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

CENDOL

slant opposite RHB bank in that nice wooden building. shifted from shack opposite hilton. alap find for 3 years dy! finally heard from xiang ying.

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

WESTERN

kensington - my all time fav.. for mushroom soup, crispy aromatic duck..

pizza italia - fresh pizza.. spaghetti.. not bad la, but cannot fight with spaghetti from louisiana..

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

JAP FOOD

Jap buffet at allson klana.

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

THAI

Blossom~

. x . x . x . x . x . x . x .

anyone know anywhere else?? do share =]

Gym???

2010-03-24T21:47:00.004+08:00

had quite an interesting gym experience today. hmm..

this gym pro said wana teach us how to stretch. i thought that would be like.. lean here and there while ppl pushing u or sth. actually it was like... i duno how to say.. haha.. but it was damn painful. i clack one side, felt very weird (like unbalanced.. maybe coz song sai one side and stiff the other) and painful, then clack the other side, then clack all the way down the back. i wondered how far my waist will turn before i break into two. then it was time for the neck. :S

then coz i complain of neck pain, the short neck massage with our favourite LMS.

wow.. pain man. haha..

but after that, felt like whole body song sai. so nice the feeling. but the process.. hmm..

thanks anyway!=]

don't think i dare to try it on others though.. unless they got buy life insurance.

转个弯，看看有什么惊喜。=]

2010-03-21T18:59:00.003+08:00

转个弯
或许就会看到什么惊喜
不必特地去苛求
就很自然的
或许前面就有个小小角落
让你停下休息
前方蓝天蓝海融成一片
吹吹海风
歇下气
聊聊天
过个美好的一天 =]

往前走.. 去追随彩虹的影子吧

2010-03-14T13:16:00.004+08:00

一段美丽的故事
用了很久很久去读去写
当下经历了各种喜怒哀乐
有着许多刻苦铭心的回忆
到最后故事仍然总结了
写完了

另一段美丽的短篇
来也冲冲，去也冲冲
还未意识到它开始
它就已经结束了
明知道是短篇
却有点不舍
但或许，
硬把短篇加长成为长长的故事
未免太勉强了吧
或许短篇也有短篇的美
虽然短了些，
却给我带来了好多惊喜
回忆

是时候收拾心情
再往前走
前面还有更多美丽的故事等着我呢。。。

after denial, bargaining, anger and depression.. comes acceptance.
i guess it's time to move on.

look further

2010-03-13T19:50:00.002+08:00

sometimes the world is wider than what we see ~~or don't see~~ in front of us.

when we look at our personal lives, we see things that don't go our way, dreams that aren't fulfilled, work that isn't done..

not to say that these are not important.. but..

somewhere on this planet, there are people who see their houses crumple in front of their eyes, with or without their family in it. there are parents who see their children die from starvation. sickness. old folks who have to walk maybe through bushes and steep rocky paths just to get to town for some groceries. children abandoned along roadsides by parents not able to support them. or innocent children born with HIV and just living waiting to die and it's not even their fault.

we are lucky to be alive and whole.

so i guess i should stop grumbling and ranting bout my insignificant problems and start being a better person in whatever little way that i can help.

最熟悉的陌生人

2010-03-12T23:58:00.000+08:00

分手后不可做好友，因此彼此伤害过。。。
不可做敌人，因此彼此深爱过
所以我们变成了最熟悉的陌生人。。。

saw this on facebook
why everyone so emo??

sad stuff from facebook...

2010-03-12T09:48:00.000+08:00

1、有些事，我们明知道是错的，也要去坚持，因为不甘心；有些人，我们明知道是爱的，也要去放弃，因为没结局；有时候，我们明知道没路了，却还在前行，因为习惯了。

2、以为蒙上了眼睛，就可以看不见这个世界；以为捂住了耳朵，就可以听不到所有的烦恼；以为脚步停了下来，心就可以不再远行；以为我需要的爱情，只是一个拥抱。

3、那些已经犯过的错误，有一些是因为来不及，有一些是因为刻意躲避，更多的时候是茫然地站到了一边。我们就这样错了一次又一次，却从不晓得从中汲取教训，做一些反省。

4、你不知道我在想你，是因为你不爱我，我明明知道你不想我，却还爱你，是因为我太傻。也许有时候，逃避不是因为害怕去面对什么，而是在等待什么。

5、天空没有翅膀的痕迹，但鸟儿已经飞过；心里没有被刀子割过，但疼痛却那么清晰。这些胸口里最柔软的地方，被爱人伤害过的伤口，远比那些肢体所受的伤害来得犀利，而且只有时间，才能够治愈。

6、很多人，因为寂寞而错爱了一人，但更多的人，因为错爱一人，而寂寞一生。我们可以彼此相爱，却注定了无法相守。不是我不够爱你，只是我不敢肯定，这爱，是不是最正确的。

7、如果背叛是一种勇气，那么接受背叛则需要一种更大的勇气。前者只需要有足够的勇敢就可以，又或许只是一时冲动，而后者考验的却是宽容的程度，绝非冲动那么简单，需要的唯有时间
8、生命无法用来证明爱情，就像我们无法证明自己可以不再相信爱情。在这个城市里，诚如劳力士是物质的奢侈品，爱情则是精神上的奢侈品。可是生命脆弱无比，根本没办法承受那么多的奢侈

9、人最大的困难是认识自己，最容易的也是认识自己。很多时候，我们认不清自己，只因为我们把自己放在了一个错误的位置，给了自己一个错觉。所以，不怕前路坎坷，只怕从一开始就走错了方向。

10、生活在一个城市里，或者爱一个人，又或者做某件事，时间久了，就会觉得厌倦，就会有一种想要逃离的冲动。也许不是厌倦了这个城市、爱的人、坚持的事，只是给不了自己坚持下去的勇气。

11、多少次又多少次，回忆把生活划成一个圈，而我们在原地转了无数次，无法解脱。总是希望回到最初相识的地点，如果能够再一次选择的话，以为可以爱得更单纯。

12、如果你明明知道这个故事的结局，你或者选择说出来，或者装作不知道，万不要欲言又止。有时候留给别人的伤害，选择沉默比选择坦白要痛多了

让人心疼的12句话哪句说到你的痛了....

stupid gal..

2010-03-12T01:29:00.003+08:00

why do i do this to myself again and again?
have i not learnt?
i will not wait any longer
waiting while eating two cups of maggie
waiting while watching gossip girl
waiting...
sometimes i really think i am too naive

a moment

2010-03-09T21:43:00.003+08:00

where time seems to stand still
where black and white becomes gray
where i remember
the reason i fell in love with you...

something out of the blue

2010-02-27T15:16:00.002+08:00

yet has my heart doing acrobatics.^^

first day in enforcement

2010-02-22T22:07:00.003+08:00

woohoo.. enforcement rocks man~

1. prepared raiding kits, there were taklimats, gotta fill up the form.. neh.. all the boring stuff.

2. RAIDING! on the first day mind you. yippee! it was quite interesting. five teams in the whole NS, then whole malaysia raid serentak for the slimming drug containing sibutramine? (i keep forgetting how to spell it.. then keep bugging mr. hon bout the spelling. sorrieee~) the most interesting was that the tauke of my shop was sooooooooo fierce. at first she was quite nice, a bit cautious. then she refused to take out her stock! even after the DEO card was shown. then at the mention of police she freaked! throwing the card on the table, scolding scolding. and man is she ganas. i was like shockednervousscared all rolled in one. (and mr. hon had just said that this was just a normal raid with normally no problems at all...0.0'') anyway, in the end she called her supplier to foot the bill, then handed everything to us. her supplier friend must be pretty busy right now.

rm200/box. NS got more than 100 i think. let's say is 100. malaysia count as 12 states to account for those smaller ones. 240000 in one shot. must pay back the salons/shops etc. then denda somemore? phew.

3. jetty visit!~ lalala~ got the chance to go to PD jetty for a short stint. had quite an interesting talk along the way too. i finally understand what the sinsei said bout my blood being 'weak' causing my rash. thanks!

4. I just realised that i thought hamsap kamarul was tommy!!!!!!!! oh noes!!!!!!!!!!! since i thought he was not the hamsap fella, when i saw him around i actually smiled. *pengsan* later he think i hiaw. besides, he is bald, fat and short, but soooooo totally does not look malay. i can't spot the signature hamsap look either. Either he has mastered the art of masking his hamsapness or my boops are just not big enough. Lolz.. anyways, my presentation topic is under him. diessss.......

5. cme here has foood~ ;p

hello, stranger

2010-02-21T23:08:00.002+08:00

sometimes all it takes is a simple sentence to change everything you once knew into nothingness.

分手快乐

2010-02-19T22:14:00.001+08:00

我无法帮你预言
委曲求全有没有用
可是我多么不舍
朋友爱的那么苦痛
爱可以不问对错
至少有喜悦感动
如果他总为别人撑伞
你何苦非为他等在雨中
泡咖啡让你暖手
想挡挡你心口里的风
你却想上街走走
吹吹冷风会清醒的多
你说你不怕分手
只有一点遗憾难过
情人节就要来了
剩自己一个
其实爱对了人
情人节每天都过
分手快乐
祝你快乐
你可以找到更好的
不想过冬
厌倦沉重
就飞去热带的岛屿游泳
分手快乐
请你快乐
挥别错的才能和对的相逢
离开旧爱
像坐慢车
看透彻了心就会是晴朗的
没人能把谁的幸福没收
你发誓你会活的有笑容
你自信时候真的美多了

floundering

2010-02-15T21:38:00.003+08:00

at that instant, i'm always very calm..saying all the right words.. i rise to the occasion i suppose. right now, i feel like shit. 보고싶어... so much so much..

closure

2010-02-15T10:05:00.003+08:00

i will be brave

i will be strong

i will forge on

after all

it's a brave new world

now i just need to believe that...

girly escapade

2010-02-10T21:03:00.002+08:00

i actually spent my after-work hours today buying nail polish.. nail polish! what has become of me?

but i can't stop staring at the delicate flowers on my nails now. haha.. i think i'm addicted.;p

randomness for laughs

2010-02-06T11:36:00.002+08:00

saw this on xian yi's facebook link. some seem to be picked from my thoughts themselves. Lolzz..

Random thoughts from people in the twenties…

3. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you’re wrong.

5. Have you ever been walking down the street and realized that you’re going in the complete opposite direction of where you are supposed to be going? But instead of just turning a 180 and walking back in the direction from which you came, you have to first do something like check your watch or phone or make a grand arm gesture and mutter to yourself to ensure that no one in the surrounding area thinks you’re crazy by randomly switching directions on the sidewalk.

7. I totally take back all those times I didn’t want to nap when I was younger.

8. Is it just me, or are 80% of the people in the “people you may know” feature on Facebook people that I do know, but I deliberately choose not to be friends with?

9. Do you remember when you were a kid, playing Nintendo and it wouldn’t work? You take the cartridge out, blow in it and that would magically fix the problem. Every kid in America did that, but how did we all know how to fix the problem? There was no internet or message boards or FAQ’s. We just figured it out. Today’s kids are soft.

10. There is a great need for sarcasm font.

11. Sometimes, I’ll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the f was going on when I first saw it.

12. I think everyone has a movie that they love so much, it actually becomes stressful to watch it with other people. I’ll end up wasting 90 minutes shiftily glancing around to confirm that everyone’s laughing at the right parts, then making sure I laugh just a little bit harder (and a millisecond earlier) to prove that I’m still the only one who really, really gets it.

14. I would rather try to carry 10 plastic grocery bags in each hand than take 2 trips to bring my groceries in.

15. I think part of a best friend’s job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die.

16. The only time I look forward to a red light is when I’m trying to finish a text.

18. Was learning cursive really necessary?

19. Lol has gone from meaning, “laugh out loud” to “I have nothing else to say”.

20. I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.

22. My brother’s Municipal League baseball team is named the Stepdads. Seeing as none of the guys on the team are actual stepdads, I inquired about the name. He explained, “Cuz we beat you, and you hate us.” Classy, bro.

23. Whenever someone says “I’m not book smart, but I’m street smart”, all I hear is “I’m not real smart, but I’m imaginary smart”.

24. How many times is it appropriate to say “What?” before you just nod and smile because you still didn’t hear what they said?

25. I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars teams up to prevent a dick from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers!

26. Every time I have to spell a word over the phone using ‘as in’ examples, I will undoubtedly draw a blank and sound like a complete idiot. Today I had to spell my boss’s last name to an attorney and said “Yes that’s G as in…(10 second lapse)..ummm…Goonies”

27. What would happen if I hired two private investigators to follow each other?

30. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.

32. Shirts get dirty. Underwear gets dirty. Pants? Pants never get dirty, and you can wear them forever.

34. I can’t remember the last time I wasn’t at least kind of tired.

35. Bad decisions make good stories

36. Whenever I’m Facebook stalking someone and I find out that their profile is public I feel like a kid on Christmas morning who just got the Red Ryder BB gun that I always wanted. 546 pictures? Don’t mind if I do!

37. Is it just me or do high school girls get sluttier & sluttier every year?

39. Why is it that during an ice-breaker, when the whole room has to go around and say their name and where they are from, I get so incredibly nervous? Like I know my name, I know where I’m from, this shouldn’t be a problem….

40. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you’ve made up your mind that you just aren’t doing anything productive for the rest of the day.

41. Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after DVDs? I don’t want to have to restart my collection.

42. There’s no worse feeling than that millisecond you’re sure you are going to die after leaning your chair back a little too far.

43. I’m always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten page research paper that I swear I did not make any changes to.

44. “Do not machine wash or tumble dry” means I will never wash this ever.

45. I hate being the one with the remote in a room full of people watching TV.. There’s so much pressure. ‘I love this show, but will they judge me if I keep it on? I bet everyone is wishing we weren’t watching this. It’s only a matter of time before they all get up and leave the room. Will we still be friends after this?’

46. I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello? Dammit!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voicemail. What’d you do after I didn’t answer? Drop the phone and run away?

47. I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.

48. When I meet a new girl, I’m terrified of mentioning something she hasn’t already told me but that I have learned from some light internet stalking.

49. I like all of the music in my iTunes, except when it’s on shuffle, then I like about one in every fifteen songs in my iTunes.

50. Why is a school zone 20 mph? That seems like the optimal cruising speed for pedophiles…

51. As a driver I hate pedestrians, and as a pedestrian I hate drivers, but no matter what the mode of transportation, I always hate cyclists.

52. Sometimes I’ll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.

53. It should probably be called Unplanned Parenthood.

54. I keep some people’s phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.

55. Even if I knew your social security number, I wouldn’t know what do to with it.

56. Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket, hitting the G-spot, and Pinning the Tail on the Donkey – but I’d bet my ass everyone can find and push the Snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time every time…

57. My 4-year old son asked me in the car the other day “Dad what would happen if you ran over a ninja?” How the hell do I respond to that?

58. It really pisses me off when I want to read a story on CNN.com and the link takes me to a video instead of text.

59. I wonder if cops ever get pissed off at the fact that everyone they drive behind obeys the speed limit.

60. I think the freezer deserves a light as well.

62. The other night I ordered takeout, and when I looked in the bag, saw they had included four sets of plastic silverware. In other words, someone at the restaurant packed my order, took a second to think about it, and then estimated that there must be at least four people eating to require such a large amount of food. Too bad I was eating by myself. There’s nothing like being made to feel like a fat bastard before dinner

for the complete entry, click here!

其实每个女生都是一个傻丫头~

2010-01-31T16:24:00.002+08:00

一。和她发短信时，回复一定要快，让她觉得你放下手上的

事情立刻回复她，字数一定要比她的多，这样她会觉得你很在乎她。

二。每天睡觉之前一定要给她一条道“晚安”的短信，不管你有多晚，因为她可能一直在等你，只是她嘴上说不管。即便是她已经昏昏睡去，第二天一醒来也会立刻去查收信息。

三。看到她的未接电话要立刻打过去，任何时候不要让她找不到你，因为这样她会一直很不安心。

四。你问她想不想你时，如果她说不想，你不要生气，因为她的不想就是想。

五。千万要记得女生都是害羞的，不要什么都让她主动。也不要在她表现心疼、吃醋、关心你的时候不停地问，只要偷偷地笑心里甜就够了，也许她不想让你知道她无时无刻不在想对你好。

六。经常去她的空间逛逛，即使什么也不留下，但是她看到你来过的痕迹也会很开心，也许有些心情就是为你而写。顺便看看她的心情日志什么的，还有她好友的留言，多知道点她的小秘密挺好，准备惊喜也容易点。

七。牵了手就不要轻易说分手，吵架的时候也不要说。如果她赌气跑开，只要一个用力的拥抱就能让她安静，就能让她感觉到你的爱。希望你能懂她离开时想要被挽留，如果说出口那只是乞求来的温柔。

八。开始一段新的恋情的前提是放下前面的所有恋情，你可以把她们给你的信物和美好记忆保留着，但是请把这些用一个匣子藏在她永远不会发现的地方，因为那些她不知道的事对于她是致命的伤害。记住女生都是敏感的动物。

九。如果一时冲动分了手，请给彼此冷却的时间，想清楚她就是你想要的人就勇敢地告诉她，不管用什么手段，死皮赖脸也好让她回到你身边就好。如果真的爱她就不要放开她，不要让她伤心，不要让她流泪，你明明知道她有多傻，她会傻傻等你的，你知道女生的青春有多么宝贵么！如果你还心疼她绝不要在分手不到一个月就移情别恋，这样等于在她伤口上撒盐。请你交换角色想一想，如果你女朋友和你分手第二天就在别的男人怀里开心地笑，你的心会有多痛？

如果你有一个傻丫头，请你好好珍惜她好好爱她好吗？也许你不知道你的一句关心，你的一个微笑，你的一个吻，一个拥抱，一个摸头发的动作都是她的幸福，其实她要的只是这么简单。她不奢求太多的惊喜，太多的浪漫，有你就是她所有的幸福。不要轻易放开她，因为她是傻丫头，她会在别人面前装的很强，对每个人微笑，然后半夜一个人躲在楼梯拐角处偷偷哭啼，她会不停地听着和你有关的歌，默默关注着你，默默的生病，默默的流泪，她会开始变的沉默，变得开始唱悲伤的歌，弹悲伤的曲子。

如果你真的有一个傻丫头请记得你说的话好吗？请你让她幸福，给她幸福，要自信的对她说：“我会让你变成全世界最幸福的人，我要让所有的人都羡慕你有一个好老公。”

saw this on facebook.. so true.. gals are idiots when it comes to love. guys just need to understand that.

cooling down period

2010-01-29T19:58:00.001+08:00

boy was i mad.. but after taking a bath.. i finally decided to do the call anyway. this time i can say 'i sacrifice for you' to his face.

but i guess it really pays to 吃点亏..

coz when i called, he said he found someone.

breath of relief.

maybe he's not as useless as i thought.

my mood improved vastly. i even wished him all the best tomorrow and to break a leg.

but then again, even though "break a leg" is no different than "good luck", it is a bit not apt for a ball game.

so well... let's all hope for the best tomorrow.

p/s: i shoot to 100 degrees fast.. blow off steam for a while.. then it all evaporates leaving the nice me once again. it's always been this way. and i've just been reminded of myself once again. but mind you.. when i'm pissed.. i'm PISSED..

oh and by the way, H1N1 injected arm hurts after a day. no kidding.

what really PISSES me off!

2010-01-29T18:06:00.002+08:00

if i change on-call with X and you owe X one and have to ganti her, FOR GOODNESS SAKE YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR THAT CALL! that's basic knowledge.

let's see... if X exchanged with me and i'm supposed to do it next week or sth, if i need to do presentations on that same day it's my own bad luck and i'll have to deal with it, and not say...."i sacrifice for youuuuu~~~" everytime i see X and make her feel bad.

it's not like i purposely change with X coz i can foresee that everyone will have to do presentations on that day right? moreover, it would be X's problem if you didn't have to ask her to ganti you much earlier.

and if you are supposed to do that call and you suddenly have some ~~stupid ball chasing match~~ football tournament YOU are the one supposed to deal with it right?? you don't come telling me at 4.45pm on friday "ohhhhh can you ganti me tomorrow?? pity me larrrr...."

GAH!!!!

if it's such an important match did you just find out about it 15 minutes before work ended on the day just before? if it's such a last minute thing it must not be very important. or if it is such an important thing you would have known much earlier. and you didn't bother to find a substitute earlier? was it just so that you can shock me at the very last minute and pressure me to doing the call??

well, too bad, i already have plans since a week ago.

and too bad for me also, if no one turns up, i'll still be the one fried.

really DAMN IT!!!!!!!!

DOUBLE TRIPLE INFINITY SHIT MAN!!

u asshole.. slimball.. slug.. bugger.. argh!!!!!!!!!

really, i would have thought you were more responsible than that.

H1N1 vaccination

2010-01-28T18:03:00.002+08:00

after thinking bout it long and hard, i finally decided to let myself be one of the guinea pigs and take the H1N1 vaccine. well, we were supposed to take it anyway, and to write down our names if we refused so that in case we kena H1N1 we had to answer for ourselves. since it was die (from the vaccine?) or die (from H1N1?), i just took it la end of story.

a bit scared. wasn't painful. hand a bit numb after that. just like after the flu vaccine last time.

came home. dad was very supportive. mom was very NOT supportive. just like the population at hospital right now: some so happy that the vaccine is out. "we need the protection! we're at risk!" some won't take no matter what. "don't wanna be guinea pigs!"...

....

anyway, if i grow horns tomorrow you all will be the first to know.

sometimes life just goes in a circle

2010-01-17T18:03:00.002+08:00

today suddenly had the urge to reconnect with some old friends.. found out some stuff.. felt quite sad. what i had predicted had come true after all.. it didn't end after we left. the new batch suffered the same fate as me. thinking back, i can remember the rage, the confusion, the disbelief at the extremeness sum ppl can go to, and i wouldn't hope it on any other. but life comes in a circle that doesn't stop. and this time it did not end up with someone as ~~outwardly~~ docile as i was. somehow, i feel sad for tigerlady too. coz i still believe that she does not really mean to hurt all the people that she has. so much has changed in just this short few months.. sigh..

all is not bad though. today i walked in and you suddenly asked me whether i was feeling better. that simple act of concern really touched me. i mean, we are not even close. and i just mentioned it in passing to ur hubby last night and u remembered. that simple sentence made my day even brighter than it originally was. suddenly i catch a glimpse of why ur hubby chose u, since i have not really known u well before this. sum ppl have a lot of opinions on who marry who and whether they think they should or not. but i see how well u two suit each other. i have learnt to see a little deeper. now i really don't mind getting to know you a little better. and thank you for making my day.=]

some drivers are nuts @.@

2010-01-14T16:10:00.002+08:00

just came back from gold coast and tanjung sepat with my family, only to be told that our dustbin is successfully decapitated..

or rather.. that this car came way too fast.. banged the back of my neighbour's car parked outside their house.. reversed.. then banged our dustbin.. then zoomed off..

but now i think bout it.. if the front of the car is anywhere near as bad as my neighbour's backside.. it would be quite hard to zoom off.

this calls for an investigation.. reinterogation of eye witnesses..

except there were none.

so in the end.. there's just the banged up backside of my neighbour's car.. and wat's left of our dustbin.

i think i'll do something more productive.. like sorting out my photos. haha..

malaria's in town

2010-01-12T22:47:00.002+08:00

today suddenly got ppl come to our housing area to test us all for malaria. it seems sum fella working at sarawak got it, so hey taman, you all gotta get tested.

first time i really sympathised with those diabetics who have to prick their fingers like 4 times a day to test their sugar level. one prick on my finger for malaria testing.. well.. not really painful, but still, not something i would wana do often.

and the way they treat the houses is quite different from fogging.. it's just some spraying of some odourless medication which needs to be dried. tadaa. we still went out of the house for a while though. with the fans on full blast.

so let's hope they don't come calling anything soon. then we'll be clear!;p

methadone experience

2010-01-10T22:00:00.003+08:00

hmm.. one week at methadone.. quite interesting.

some patients are soooo cute!!! they can make u stutter during counseling. haha.

some are so nice they even tapau nasi lemak and beehoon to belanja us. even though we were quite scared to eat it.. got drugs added maybe?? but end up it was just fine.

M for methadone?

some complain when we dilute the methadone with more water to make it impossible for them to concentrate it for injection (no kick it seems.. but i thought methadone not supposed to give kick??)

some always come and hurry us.. faster faster gotta work.

there was this one time where a row of them, 5 actually, were handcuffed together. then when i called one name the whole row stood up and came forward. quite freaky. but then they had to orientate themselves in such a way that the person could sign, drink, with them moving accordingly like marionettes. i had to stop myself from laughing out loud.

for the first 3 days i parked far away purposely for fear of my car being scratched..
late once.. scratch!
tomorrow late again.. scratch!
horror of horrors...

but then my boss laughed at me. so after that i just zoomed in right next to the methadone building. they were so nice.. no scratch.. they even reminded me to turn off my lights. Lolzz..

then i also went to prison.. quite an experience. they actually don't just rot there in their cells while waiting for their time to be over. i learnt that they actually go through courses, then get to learn skills, and work for money after they are trustworthy enough. it must be like life-long BTN.. scary thought..

felt a bit bad when boss had to cramp into my small car though. and i was quite nervous. i mean, it's stressful enough to fetch ur boss to the prison since my driving skills weren't exactly very pro.. plus.. my tank was nearly empty.. wasn't quite expecting an extra trip that day. thought could top up on the way back home. but all went well though. thank goodness.

my boss even belanja me teh in prison. haha. that must be the first and last time i yamcha in prison.

all in all.. i quite enjoyed this week. no requirements to think about. plenty of packaging and recording, but not bad once you get the hang of it. didn't really touch my TDM stuff the whole week though.:( tomorrow must go back to work with extra zeal!

disorganisations! it there is such a word...

2010-01-06T22:40:00.003+08:00

i am suddenly in a clearing mood.. sadly not one in which i feel motivated to type out all my TDM presentations or scour the internet for journals for research project though.. but motivated enough to clear the living room table.

i finally can't stand the dump it's becoming. imagine.. such a wide table.. full of all my books.. papers.. laptop..

organize organize!! clear clear!!

then hopefully i will be in a more efficient mode.

most probably i will just go to sleep though.

actually.. the only thought on my mind right now is that HEROES LOAD FASTER!!

musings~

2010-01-06T22:17:00.002+08:00

sometimes i wonder...

we point our fingers at them and say they are this and that...

but actually..

aren't we just like them?

my boss must be getting shivers when he sees my number...

2010-01-05T21:33:00.002+08:00

it's my second day at methadone and my boss was on leave. after a very stressful, crazy and busy first day.. he taught both of us how to assemble this and that, where everything was, how to do this and that.. then he left us saying.. if there's anything better to call me.

so today dawned...

the first problem.. he seemed alright.. talked us through.. told us what to do..

then the second.. and third.. and fourth..

anyway.. i can't really remember how many were there.. but i know there were at least 3 (or 4?) from me and one from my partner. that makes it... like almost a call every hour?　

but come to think of it.. it must not have been tat bad la.. coz i remember the first call was at 11sth.. and the last at 3sth.. but maybe it was quite a few in the space of a couple of hours.. anyhow.. his picking up voice was beginning to sound a bit fazed..

i mean. how can it be a holiday when u are ~~demanded to think and process and come up with solutions~~ reminded of work every time u get into something?

i mean. can u even take a nap?

or maybe u are sitting down to a most delightful meal and then ring ring..

or maybe the tv/game is at the most climatic moment and then ring ring..

or maybe working people on cuti don't do stuff like that.

i guess it'll be more practical stuff like going to the bank to pay up all ur bills and update ur account books or renew ur this and that or pay tax or sth and then ring ring..

in the bank.. if you're on the phone, the guard actually thinks you are plotting a robbery and will ask u to hang up. serious.

but enough of all this.. i should just leave people alone for some rest.

but i really duno how to deal with those sudden changes ma.. like patients supposed to come yesterday but come today then the chart shows he took away for yesterday....

or suddenly got spub stuff.. or patients appearing with letters saying they wana go hutan or go work or sth..

or that we can only give maximum 3 bottles..

or faxing stuff we don't have to jinjang?

sigh..

life is complicated..

golden hour

2010-01-05T19:41:00.000+08:00

Today i drove home with the sky a golden splendour,
and colourful lights along the streets..

the way home has never looked so beautiful..

what do i have to say 3 hours before this year ends?

2009-12-31T20:53:00.001+08:00

me? i have no old year resolutions.. new year resolutions..

just wana go by life block by block.

first was must graduate. now is must pass PRP.

but what the heck...

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

TDM stress

2009-12-28T20:45:00.003+08:00

today was my first day of TDM. big boss not around, so andrew briefed us on what to do. really very grateful for that, else i would be so lost. even so, we had 7 cases today. 7! that's like the max that they encounter only occationally. what the heck, i guess it's all the better to train us up.

right now, with the thoughts of log book requirements, cases to clerk, case presentation this week?? or topic presentation? follow-up on results tomorrow?? on case for presentation?? post-natal tomorrow, medical chart inspections this week, my research cases to follow up... i'm feeling a mite stress. so i think i'll just grab my copy of undomestic goddess, reread it, laugh my guts out tonight, and have double stress tomorrow.

3 more hours to go only.. boohoo..

low

2009-12-25T17:48:00.002+08:00

i have reached a stage where i really have no motivation to do anything. whether it be going out, or taking photos, or even calling up my friends. even though once i get to doing it (whether it being going out or meeting up with friends or taking shots or being in a conversation), i actually do enjoy it. but heck, sometimes i'm even lazy to answer the phone. am i morphing into a hermit or am i just growing old? and this is when all the bugging stuff creeps into my mind, driving me up the wall.

i am surrounded by contradiction.

i need to get a life.

when all you can do is wait for God to move

2009-12-20T09:17:00.002+08:00

While i'm waiting by John Waller

How penang fattens up a person

2009-12-10T18:46:00.013+08:00

first stop: we tried the famous beef kuay teow soup opposite bomba. the o jian not bad too.
clock tower
supper at song river, round 2: o jian, zhu hu kangkung, fried kuey teaw, lobak, roti babi, prawn fritters, chicken wings. yumm...
cute fella at hotel lobby
gurney hotel

up close n personal. and d next thing i saw thru d lens was It baring its sharp sharp teeth at me and press its hands on d ground (the action animals do just the second before they pounce). and thru the lens, i suppose It was so much bigger. i don't think i was that far away either since i don't have zoom lens. so well, to say the least, i let out an embarassing shriek.

next time i think i will only shoot close ups of animals with a zoom lens. lesson learnt.

dinner at the stall near aunt's place with my regular drink in penang - barley! really necessary for all the heaty food i will be taking.
dinner had nth special. but supper.. hehe.. here's song river round 1 - fried kuey teaw w'out egg, more damp, and with chilli. plus lobak and prawn fritters.
hotel breakfast.
we even had a flat tire to spice up our trip. no adventour is without its setbacks i presume.
day 2, lunch was at lorong selamat - my favourite ice kacang and kuey teaw soup. best eva! the supposedly famous but rude fried kuey teaw stall had her own shop nowadays, but we did't try it.

at the branch of ayer hitam's nutmeg shop
jelutong market
tea was the famous ayer hitam assam laksa. really didn't let me down. the side dishes fr the nearby stall was not bad also.
dinner was at a hawker centre opposite the methodist girls school or sth. ok la, nth special.
day 3: b'fast was dimsum at the foot of bukit bendera. seremban dimsum, no, dimsum at manchester is still the nicest. hehe..
fundicular tracks leading up to bukit bendera

this in a food court. simply unexpected.
mango salad from a thai stall .. not bad..

day 4: lunch at dunkin donut on the highway back home. quite a lot to digest given that we were all having diarrhoea. haha..

penang is heaven if u know where to go, and plain ordinary if you don't.

anyhow, i didn't bring much back, since i deposited most of what i gained from penang (food) in 11 episodes of diarrhoea on the way back, 7 of which occured within 3 hours. -.-"

so well, it must just mean that i ate well right? hehe..

frankly speaking, right now even the mention of food to me is quite a turn off. i think i have officially overdosed my self with food.

good for losing weight though.;p

alap and lin hui's b'day 2009

2009-12-08T20:52:00.006+08:00

the day before, we gals went out for lunch and shopping first. hehe..

next day, we went to sing k as an undercover for our surprise.

when the cake suddenly came out, i do think they were surprised. haha.. it was a big kelam kabut though, coz we forgot to make sure one of us had the mike to sing the birthday song. but all in all, hope they all had a great time.=]

the guy version of 失落沙洲.. not bad also.^^

happy birthday lin hui and alap.=]

Singapore trip - yet another backdated post

2009-12-08T17:56:00.010+08:00

we met at the train staton full of excitement for our very first trip out of the country. hehe..

the next morning after a very cold and uncomfortable trip (next time by hook or by crook must buy those with beds), we finally reached singapore. =]

Singapore - the land of high-rise buildings..

our first meal in singapore ~~

our room^^ i mean, one of the three rooms in our apartment.

first stop was sentosa island - images of singapore...

this fella was really convincingly super fake. i even poked him a few times and it felt like cushion for legs and rubber for skin. fake wan la i exclaimed, then he suddenly said hi!

our first group shot~

another of the events we went was lunging. it was really fun. hehe..

and came together with a cable ride back up to the top of the hill. so cool~

finally, i managed to see the sentosa wordings for myself. it didn't let me down.

at night, we went to hear the songs of the sea. it was really spectacular indeed~

and ended with an array of fireworks.

for dinner, we had the honour to try the s'pore fried prawn mee thanks to lip kian.

we finally ended our night at clark quay.

next day, we roamed the streets of chinatown.

lunch was a treat by lip kian and his lovely wife. nice meal~ loved almost every dish. esp the chao li li, the crispy tofu with mayo (salivating now!!!), and the chicken. thanks so much for your hospitality!=]

it was our fifth aniversary celebration for circles. hope our friendship stays strong foreva.=]

plan for today

2009-12-03T18:58:00.004+08:00

finish up antibiotic level report - partially check

check DD - check

make morphine syrup - check

do ward inspection - check

return back inspection forms to ward - partially check. oops, uncheck .. coz i ran up to 4 wards to give them back, then realised i forgot to photostat them first. sigh.. tmr need to chase after another form still.

have a great dinner and go pasar malam!! - check now.

tata~~~~

(&^&%$%!!!

2009-12-02T18:11:00.004+08:00

wantan 1
never confirm properly, sendiri blur blur of the facts, then bring all of us plus those not in the wrong in to be scolded by the biggest ever boss. end up is just to use us as an example to all others. then we being scolded as if we were those who made opd a mess to the docs, as if we were the ones who missed night call.

kena teruk la. being threatened to have the year extended. being scolded why duno how to follow instructions. blah blah blah. end up after that only realise that is their own system's problem, somemore wana twist and turn their own words to back themselves up and say we duno how to read. say we shud come to them first if got any problem. gah! how can we when it's our first time? we don't even know what we did wrong when we the 'good' girls as we were called were round up like cows into THE room. did they come to us first when got any problem? noooo.. it was..'i don't wana hear ur excuses. go tell xxx urself'. why? coz life's not fair that's why.

ninja 2
what she does is never wrong. and we have to bear the consequences.

day 3 in office. already getting a full blast of politics.

i still have 9 months to go... sigh....

research horrors

2009-12-01T18:13:00.002+08:00

it's like this...

we had a research topic.. we thought it was hard, big boss thought it was hard, everybody thought it was hard to implement.. hence we put out heads together and came up with another topic.

then suddenly, big boss likes the new topic. hurray. but big boss also thinks that old topic is do-able suddenly. and big boss somehow neglected the fact that both topics were by the same pair, and submitted both to jkn. double shit.

so now i have two researches to do.

i am so the very D.E.A.D

maybe i shouldn't like keeping spares anymore..

♥ symbols?

2009-11-27T22:49:00.002+08:00

love symbols and wana put them everywhere even out of facebook?

well, check this page out: http://www.webmonkey.com/reference/Special_Characters

♥ hehe ♥

2009 HTJ prps sing k session

2009-11-19T23:08:00.003+08:00

Venue: room 38 and 43 greenbox jusco
Agenda: to let all prps sing themselves hoarse
Projected outcome: no counselling will be done tomorrow.

really had a great time though. hehe.. it was really a 'let loose' session, where everyone just about sang their hearts out with really no inhibition. and had a whale of a time. at the end part, we were jumping around, with arms swinging with invisible fluorescent sticks, and acting as drunk as if we had just downed a couple of pints.

and my happiest was that i had finally '开声'. all and any song was achievable. the plus point was we were having too much fun to care, really. haha..

Fireproof

2009-11-14T21:39:00.002+08:00

fireproof - from the creators of facing your giants.

really blown away by this christian film. never imagined that a christian film could be so nice to watch! insightful. touching. and with cool music. really feel so proud of the church. keep it up!

first makan with colleagues - yet another backdated post.

2009-11-14T21:18:00.003+08:00

we went to try seremban's thai food, which i've been to i think 2 more times since then. the food is really not bad. hehe.. and the mango salad thingy is the nicest appetiser ever. be sure to try that. and i so love the padthai and oliang. haha..

it was very fun to roam the pasar malam streets after dinner. something i haven't done in a long long time. plus, the company was great. time passed all too soon.

we went back to stacy's house after our little outing and had more laughs back there. gosh, i can't wait for our next makan together. haha.. and then i think i'll update my blog sooner. writing bout it after so long seems to take the oomph out of whatever i wanted to say. nvm, next time next time...

moonlight celebration of 2009

2009-11-14T15:26:00.003+08:00

we wanted to be kids once again. what more is there to say?

it was a wonderful night. where i was a kid again plus had a bunch of really cool friends playing with me. hee..

p/s: this is what remained of the aloe vera plant after going in flames for a couple of minutes. not bad eh? ;p

baking round 3

2009-11-14T14:33:00.007+08:00

all about baking - another backdated post

2009-11-14T13:57:00.005+08:00

it's too long ago. i've forgotten what i might have wanted to say. haha. so let's let the pics do the talking...

Raya celebrations - a backdated post

2009-11-14T12:42:00.004+08:00

first, sing k =]

then off to my house for baking round 1.

next off was a round of good sweaty invigorating game.

finished off with ravenous people and a good meal, where we got to meet francis again.

all in all, i think it was a raya holiday well spent.=]

sudden case of uk blue-ness

2009-11-13T21:47:00.003+08:00

suddenly miss so many things all at once.. it's overwhelming.

i so miss slugging on fiona's bedroom floor...

miss chatting with shu yin till late night and still dowan to sleep...

i even miss yi lyn mama's nagging.. ~~what has happened to me????~~ no la, kidding. hehe.. really missed you too lyn lyn..

and karen's cooking.. wow karen's cooking. need i say any more?

miss fen fen's cheerful smile and cute pinchable face...

miss walking into the kitchen and seeing leng's cheerful smile while cooking something delicious or eating or laughing at me as i go for my numerous top-ups of fried rice... ~~i could finish up almost a whole wok, no kidding~~

miss going to new mercy.. our life group.. our discipleship group.. even walking to church for practice in the cold.. and of course, starbucks' dark berry mocha.. ;p

miss going for photo hunting.. with my "si fu"s chris and kelvin.. who introduced me to the wonderful world within a frame, and taught me so much.. miss trisha who brightens up our outing with her blur and sleepy looks yet positive attitude..

miss pui ee.. for being my guide. my friend. my dicipler.

of course, i would be lying if i say i didn't miss the internet connection there. haha..

miss traveling with all my dear friends along with all our sakai-ness..

miss hui yen and hui yin's laughter when we had the chance to be housemates at the last part of our year in uk. feel lucky to be able to be ah yen's housemate once again after such a long time. but feel a bit sad that i didn't get to know hui yin better earlier. but well, better late than never.=]

miss hanging out with my dear juniors before we left..

even miss walking to the bank, with my headphones on and music accompanying my every step.

gosh.. i just miss that whole year in glasgow (and out of it) so so much.

now we are all scattered all over malaysia, not forgetting uk, with hardly a chance to meet, except maybe each other's weddings in the future. sigh..

it's been a great pleasure and honour knowing all of you. wherever you all are right now, wish you all the best. to those in uk, miss you all! and take care. and to our fellow coursemates who are now prps, we will survive this!

hmm.. why am i so restless and nostalgic tonight?? i wonder...

anyhow.. glasgow will always hold a special place in my heart....

getting cheated by a patient... well, that's a first...

2009-11-13T17:57:00.006+08:00

today is the first time i got cheated by a patient.

......

patient came in claiming she dropped her humapen and the cartridge holder broke (split into half to be more exact) which she then threw away. so, being the nice pharmacists we are, we gave her a new pen. just after she left, my senior found out that the cartridge holder was actually stuck in the cover, and the root of the problem was that the aunty had twisted the holder too gengchao-ly until the glass broke and got stuck inside, hence leading to the cartridge not being able to screw in. sweat. had to call the patient back. i actually chased her until out of the clinic, but then i was chasing the wrong person. so well. good thing we take down their telephone numbers. -.-V

anyway, moral of the story is... patients nowadays are tricky...

yesteday, the first round of seremban people in kk had their h1n1 vaccine jab. i had always thought that loadz of people couldn't wait to get their hands on the vaccine, but surprisingly, only 10 people consented to getting jabbed yesterday. i guess, what with 10% side effects of burning, local symptoms, flu-like symptoms including fever, muscle ache, tiredness etc, and 1% of other more rare effects.. (actually, 1% considered rare?? besides, heard got people died too in overseas.. but they make it compulsory for med proffesionals overseas i heard, if not you lose ur job..) anywayz, so just 10 were brave enough to be the guinea pigs in this first round. prps were not considered anyway. but the guineas seemed fine enough to me after jabbing. good sign..

driving back here just now, i really loved the sky, a shade of baby blue, with a golden tinge from the setting sun. nice!

i'm random. i know.

this has been a week which felt so long. maybe coz of the exam on monday, which left me with mixed feelings. anyways, gotta wait 2 months for the results. so might as well not think about it.

my car needs fixing. sigh.. the volume control seems to have a mind of its own. it goes cresendo all of a sudden, up to the volume and at the speed that can get you to reflex jam on your brake. and it doesn't help that my tyres need changing too. or maybe it's the brake. doesn't seem to grip that well when i emergency brake as i always do. okay.. i think the root is i need to drive slower. lots of police on the road these days.

suddenly feel like buying an iphone... iphone.. pda... iphone.. pda.. or just lug those books around and become muscle woman..?? decisions....

and waiting for me this weekend?? need to vomit out our proposal for the research project. can no longer hide behind the excuse of studying for forensic exam. sigh..

i'm finally a MPS member! yay! *leaps for joy*. no, it's not majlis perbandaran seremban, but malaysian pharmaceutical society. they sent me this package with a bound book of journal abstracts, a newsletter, coupled with 2 cds, one bout anti-infectives resistance, one bout h1n1 resources for pharmacists.

which suddenly reminds me.. are they really cutting our salary?? serious shit meh?! and when we have to do night calls and weekend calls and all that too.:(

and i suddenly remember... i sooooo have to brush up on my cantonese speaking skills. after a very painful cantonese counselling session.. even i can't stand to hear myself speak. help...

i'm so...

2009-11-03T19:31:00.002+08:00

tired..

stressed..

and working in kk now requires me to do squats throughout the whole day, leaving my bones now aching and stiff.

i so need a study break for this forensic exam......

tick tock tick tock...

2009-10-22T18:16:00.000+08:00

can't wait for tomorrow... yippee!;p

close call...

2009-10-20T18:05:00.002+08:00

it was a busy wave..
the working space was cramped..
the person next to me was asking me questions every 2 minutes while i was checking..
(now i know how ~~irritating~~ distracting i was...)
the medication was all in brand names..

all of a sudden, it didn't register in my mind that Daonil was Glibenclamide.

i should have known, that the earlier cross-checking is not sth to count on. well, if in everyone's mind is the thought that, 'oh well, if this isn't correct then the other person will pick it up'. outcome? mistakes just slip out like that.

and once the patient gets the wrong medication.. they run away and you can never catch them back.

i was like SOOOOOOOOO dead.....

i can't believe it, but i had given that thingy out against my gut feeling to ask coz i was afraid i would be bothersome.

so well...

patient come back~~~~~~~

anyways, wishing for the patient to come back would be useless. i can't even remember who i dispensed to.. i could only hope that the patient wouldn't become hypo after taking gliclazide instead of glibenclamide. in fact, i was praying hard that somehow everything would be fine.

all throught lunch, daonil kept playing, rewinding and repeating in my mind..
oh noesssss....

after lunch i resumed as usual. someone asked me to screen for a while. everything went on as usual.. then suddenly.. this nurse appeared with THAT Rx!! asking me whether Daonil was correct or not. i could have kissed her if i could reach her.

really... Thank God!

number 1, the patient didn't have to eat gliclazide for one month. even though they are from the same group, no one can guarantee whether anything can happen. ~~moreover, the label was all wrong!~~
number 2, if she really was warded coz of our mistake, we would have been in deep shit.
number 3, the nurse didn't go and complain to the doctor, or we would have been in deep shit too
number 4, i was the one screening..

really really thank God...

now, i will forever remember that Daonil is glibenclamide...

and i will check and double check, make sure i'm comfortable in my space, and Ask... if i'm not sure..

freakin S.I.E.N.Z

2009-10-14T21:43:00.003+08:00

tonight supposed to find more info on my research topic.. even the thought drives me to sleep.

how am i going to do a study on UGIB and PGU comparing 2 drugs when in the whole 3 wards got only 1 case of UGIB and PGU each??? sighzzz.... i guess this is why ppl use a whole year to do the project. and i'm so bad to hope for more patients with these cases to appear.. since i've seen myself the pain it causes... sigh.. i wonder which drug my granma was on last time.

cannot find study on our topic is good i guess, means we'll be the pioneers! but is also so daunting. coz means we'll be the ones writing those gengcau papers claiming this that and the other.. like all those kononnya gengcau ppl i always imagined who wrote journals and stuff. i really can meh? design protocols etc... it seems so... duno how to say.. maybe i should kick off the mentality that i'm still a student with the free pass to say i dunno. now.. i must grow up and act like an adult and grope my way with as little head-bonks as possible.

another looming monster is the forensic exam. oh gosh.... i feel weak at the knees already. imagine reading MEP for the first time.. times the thickness by 3 times. then times by 2 books..

time limit? 25 days.

lets say 1 day after work got 7 hours.
1 hour = some overtime, some jam, get my ass home...
1 hour = eat dinner.. bathe..
1 hour = chill
left 4 hours.
let's say i don't procrastinate or fb or surf the net like what i'm doing now...
4 hours split by research project and forensic = 2 hours for forensic.

25 days x 2 hours = 50 hours = around 2 days without sleep eat shit or anything else. hmm.. maybe a should start panicking. since i work better under stress anyways. haha..

so as usual.. even though i have so much stuff to do.. i'm actually still procrastinating up till now.. and i stumbled upon this song.. really awesome! music brought to life!

pity there's no video here though. the video is on in fb though, for any who wanna see their excitement while playing.;p

i think i'd better start on my search for journals.. high time.. since it's 1 hour to bedtime. aiks...

ReacH OuT . . .

2009-10-09T22:48:00.005+08:00

today we snucked out from opd for a while to attend the assembly (yup hosp even has those things) since we were going to be introduced as new members of the staff, or at least our pics were.

so anyway, in we went into the hall and even got some nuts as door gift. not bad eh.. they were courtesy of the paediatric unit who were in charge of that monthly event. they even had a choir going and had the hall decorated with bright flags (for merdeka), ketupats and deepavali designs dotted with candles. what's the nice colourful decoration on the floor called again? can't remember. always saw it in imu though... anyway, they had them there too!

they should this really touching short slide show on the special children in the wards, on how some chidlren could grow up playing happily, while others had to go through so much pain. it really saddened me to see them labouring so hard to breathe.. breathing with all their might with all those numerous tubes stuck to their chest. or to see those little babies with their bodies all distorted and twisted like they got fixed in all the wrong directions. it really makes me so grateful that at least i can walk, talk, do whatever i want as long as it doesn't hurt anyone else. what specially touched me was their quote of hippocrates at the end...

"we cure. sometimes. we treat. often. we comfort. alwayz..."

and that's why we should reach out, and continue doing so.
we might lose steam or energy after some time.
but their smile will always keep us going.

so reach out...
you never know how many lives will never be the same.
because of your little touch.

sometimes i think...
we need them more than they need us.
coz they teach us so much more...
about courage, about how precious the gift of life is.

they teach us how to be thankful.
and in discerning that,
our life gains meaning.

Melaka one day trip

2009-10-01T21:36:00.011+08:00

once again another long overdue post.. man.. fb is doing bad stuff to my blog. sweat.

anyway, we went to melaka for a one-day trip with ck and his seniors during raya. gosh.. the jam was terrible. but the trip was not bad la. considering the conditions.

first of all, after dimsum for b'fast, we paid a short visit to wu gong shan in seremban temiang there. it's been quite a number of years since i've been there. they really renovated a lot. now it looks so modern. last time it looked like those forgotten temples up on the hill. which was not bad also. a totally different feel. more mysterious.

while my friends went in to offer their prayers, i kept myself busy outside taking pics of my favourite models - flowers! yay! finally, some more malaysian floras....

the view of seremban was kinda great too up there.

of course, the guys had the best photo at this spot. everyone knows why. haha..

this one not bad also la.;p

then we found the spot with the dreamy hills in the distance.... kachak kachak began with different people posing~ ^^

after that we headed on to melaka.. looking at pics in between.. then since it was so jam.. (raya ma.. since we had to go during such a peak period.. duno who plan wan.. haha..).. so as not to waste time, we were actually cam-whoring in the car.. so dangerous right. especially since the driver was our main photographer... but this is called making efficient use of every second and every minute.

finally, we passed by the red houses.. we were getting closer to our destination - newton foodcourt for fen fen's po piah!!

FINALLY!!! i like~

after eating, we went to jonkers and walked around for a while. it was so crowded.. we ended up eating horrible versions of famous stuff at places we've never heard of. but still.. a place to sit and chill was good enough i guess. the ice kacang wasn't too bad either apart from the ice being rock hard.

tried the snacks too~ nice! except for the last biji.. some china sa li or sth.. made all of us cough. i think it's irritant to the throat. wat a time to cough though.. especially in the midst of H1n1.. sigh.. sweat...

i wanted to buy home some pineapple tarts, but due to the excessive demand... we were told we would have to wait for like half an hour to 45 minutes for it.. too bad..

finally, after going in circles and getting lost (padan muka we all, at first say melaka very small), thanks to the help from fen fen we managed to find the satay celup shop!

i really should memorise melaka streets. it's really such a food haven~~

last stop.. su ying's house for mah jong. hmm.. first time i see ppl play. quite enlightening.

that's it!! fullstop for today!! journals awaiting.. look at the time... I'M SO D.E.A.D!

lunch with francis and suat yee on 19th Sep

2009-10-01T20:03:00.004+08:00

i know this is long overdue, but better late than never right?;p

so well, we went to fatt kee to try the chicken rice there. it has been my favourite stall all the while, up till that day. i mean, the food was nice, but duno why of all days, that day's siew yuk was overcooked i think, it was so hard. and the chicken wasn't as nice as ah paw's. i still like the black char siew though. and fatt kee still tops the list for making the best taugeh, at least to me.

we had a fun relaxing time eating and catching up. finally got to meet up with francis too after so long. met ky's ex-colleague too that day! it was a day full of laughs, with much teasing and punking (all by suat yee wahahaha.. example: calling lin hui to say that we were at my house and i was packing my swimsuit to go to melaka and us hearing lin hui scolding over the phone bout why tell her so late. example 2: calling bk to say that they were already outside her house staring dolefully at her dogs). it was really great to finally meet them.=]

francis introduced us to those really funny punked incidences on hitz and we were rolling with laughter on our way home. they had to leave me at jusco though since it was my turn to stare dolefully at my empty house albeit with no dogs this time.

since my camera was already out.. it was time for some random shots. hehe..

went carb crazy.. oh dear..

they weren't as nice as i remembered though. gimme the old flavours back!!

went home, stuffed myself, went shutter crazy~

all in all, it was a great day.=]

i have become a fan of the youngest star~

2009-09-11T22:34:00.002+08:00

she's just so adorable. awww...

after 10 days in OPD...

2009-09-10T18:51:00.003+08:00

...i'm starting to love it all.

the hustle.. the bustle..
the way the day just flies by coz you are too busy to count each second passing by.

i like the sense of accomplishment
when i'm finished with a basket and send it on to the next station.
when i see the whole mountain of baskets stacked up cleared!
angin taufan gone!

i marvel at the way the dispensers and pharmacists seem to know the exact location of all the drugs!

i've seen some counsel too. ~~and oh i would so love to be their patient..~~ their counseling is so clear! and they even cover every single aspect possible that the patients might not be sure of without the patient even having to ask.

i see them handle the patients ~~some which i really wana just cekek them and bang their head against the wall or something.. so rude my goodness~~ and their patience is astounding! the way they handle queries, or seem to know exactly which medication need blue card or consultant/specialist signature blah blah.. ~~the way they scold doctors...~~ waaa... can i be like that one day?

some patients are so full of themselves, saying loudly that they know everything ~~so the pharmacist ma shuddup and just give them the drug lo.. since is another medical profession taking the drug~~, then asking about minute details like the dose which is already written clearly for them to see.

some patients are so cute though. makes you dunno wana laugh or what. yet you can clearly see their ernestness in wanting to do it right.

i think i didn't choose the wrong proffesion.

i seriously got a lot to learn though.

patience. especially! haha.. how to control my temper towards some difficult.. demanding.. rude.. obnoxious... ~~those that if eyes could kill i would be rotting in jail right now punya...~~ patients.

counseling.. i even confuse myself. sigh..

more knowledge.. i still dunno what's for what and all the pre- and post- prandial advice.. interactions.. some drugs just look plain weird.

where everything is..

basically everything.

i think i must have made quite a few mistakes today like forgetting to cross off some drugs which are given full or filling in their blue card when dispensing or writing the number of times to sapu on those creams or forgetting to check for SPUB when screening and god knows what else.

hope didn't hoi any patient too bad. sigh.. patients should be protected from people like me.

anyhow, i vow to do my best! i will de.

one day i will be like them.=]

i hope.

i'd better.

a new trick. eheehee...

2009-09-05T21:35:00.002+08:00

i'm so delighted! feel like ~~an over-excited little girl~~ a wise scientist who finally makes a new finding. now i can add a whole new level of ~~shit~~ meaning into my words. i'm so proud of myself! *pats myself on the back* ~~snooty grin~~

blog hopping

2009-09-05T13:28:00.008+08:00

i don't usually do that, in fact, wasn't really intending to do that. but somehow, some titles caught my attention, then some names i know.. and it really opened my eyes. gave me some new insight.

sometimes i'm so caught up in my own slugging/joys/sorrow.. i forget that everyone also have their own story to share, their sadness behind their smile. the world is filled with all kinds of people with all kinds of experiences. there's much to learn. and sometimes you find that you're not alone. some have been thru the same things and are still surviving. and sometimes when u read, u get a glimpse of their feelings, you feel their pain, you laugh along with them, u see a chapter of life unfolding, and u see them grow, even when they might not even realise it themselves. and in looking at their lifes and insight, u grow too. it's like looking in through a peephole and seeing bits of life sometimes similar, sometimes different from what you might ever experience.

here are some of the stuff which left an impact on me...

The Sun is Smiling~ by Phaik Leng

Of the many departments in the hospital, I always thought that maternity ward is the happiest place to be in. Over the visiting hours, you will see a vast of smiling faces. And these are usually the new parents or grandparents, or even close family friends. Every pair of eyes would be admiring their new little angels, all cocooned up in little blankets to keep them warm.

But, I also learnt that the happiest ward might also be a sad place for some. It was on a sunny afternoon when the ward nurse handed me a prescription for a young Indian lady. The doctor had endorsed only a list of medications for the mother, and none for the baby. In the midst of the chatters and laughters of other happy parents in the ward, I spotted the Indian lady whose prescription was in my hand. She was sitting alone on a bench, facing the small garden in between the wards. I approached her, wanting her to acknowledge my presence, but at the same time, fearing that i might be disturbing her from her deep thoughts. She seemed upset while looking at the bag of medications in my hands. I said no words as I sat down next to her. As though talking to a complete stranger, she shared a few words, "She's my second baby, and like the first one, she did not survive immediately after birth." My heart cried out for her when i listened to her. The tired eyes, the weary mood, the wrinkled face - all of which showed me how hard it was to be a mother and to conceive a baby. As I was still lost for words, she continued, "But you know, my dear, life has to go on. My babies have just gone to heaven early. And, I'm now seeing the sun smiling anew. Have you noticed it today?"

I didn't answer her. For I was dumbfounded and amazed by her spirit. She was only 32, not much older than I am; but much wiser, much mellower, much stronger in faith. I dispensed the medications to her, still overwhelmed by what she has just said. Her words echoed in my inner ear - "...I'm now seeing the sun smiling anew..." She thanked me with a wide smile, and as I left the bench, I finally told her, "Yes I have seen the sun smiling. I have seen it in your smile. I should thank you for that." I came home that day, with one message sent across my mind - at any moment of life when all we see is just darkness, start searching for the light. It is there, it's just how we perceive it. Let it shine unto us. Let it show us the way, so that we will not feel at lost.

Better in time~
It's been the longest winter
without you I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through
Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realize that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

[Chorus:] Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings
If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the past
I believe it And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

[Chorus:] Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time
Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is
I'll be fine without you Yes I will

[Chorus: x2] Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

"it's not easy to live it's not easy to die also. so just hang on in the mean time." - Unknown

"sometimes things happen at the least expected time, in the least expected way. We just have to appreciate what we have today. " - Phaik Leng

The Climb
I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,

Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

but I Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking

The pain I'm knowing
But these are the moments that I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on,

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

"其实很多小小的事情都足以让你开心。只是在乎你要或不要而已。其实也有很多事情都可以用很多角度去看。如果你发现你往这个角度看，你活得很辛苦，那何不从另个角度出发？" - Shin Hun

"Actually I don't feel like living my life anymore... but I continue anyway" - Left anonymous to respect author's privacy

"if you have something to say, don't say it all, but say what you need to say. " - Yannee

DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, "How do I know if I married the right person?"

I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?"

In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?"

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind.

Here's the answer.

EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse. You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies.

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience.

You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love... Because it's happening TO YOU. People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet." Think about the imagery of that _expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU.

Falling is love is easy. It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship. Slowly but surely, phone calls

become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies, instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the right person?" And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else. This is when marriages breakdown. People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious. But sometimes people turn to work,a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage.

It lies within it.

I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else. You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't "find" LASTING love. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the _expression "the labor of love."

Because it takes time, effort, and energy. And most importantly, it takes WISDOM. You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships. Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your

relationship WILL make your marriage stronger. It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable...you can "make" love.

Love in marriage is indeed a "decision"... Not just a feeling.

"The true purpose of having problems in life, is that it makes you learn because nobody learns from a bed of roses..... No words of others should bring me down like this. Because if people say things that are meant to hurt you, then these people shouldn't matter at all in this place.

If you love, you will get hurt. And you will only learn if the hurt is great enough. It's like, it's easier to see the light at the end of the road if it's dark enough..... If you give up on yourself, then you won't be able to see or hear anyone in the crowd. And if you give up on your life, then life will not go on for you." - Y annee

dancing babies~

2009-09-05T11:14:00.001+08:00

too cute until beh tahan. haha..

IOI mall sing k contest~

2009-09-02T21:51:00.027+08:00

our initial agenda:

1. go sunway shopping
2. meet alap for dinner
3. go see the CHC drama
4. meet ck for yamcha then sleep at his friend's house
5. next day go support his singing competition semi-finals at IOI mall.

the final outcome:

1. lunch at sunway ZEN. a bit pricey, but nice!

while waiting for food, let's not waste time. keke..

and then it was all about F.O.O.D~

great food, great ambience, and super nice desert. i was so satisfied. the salmon didn't really live up to my expectations though. i had tasted nicer in Zanmai (albeit at a much smaller portion). the unagi was fantabulous! and so was the desert. really melts in ur mouth... (duh, it's ice cream. ice cream melts. but still, the skin was so nice and chewy but not too chewy. hehe..)

2. dinner with alap at the place famous for fried laksa. not bad. really the nicest dish there. or maybe coz the other dishes weren't that spectacular.

3. desert near Asia Cafe. with interesting beepers to let u know when ur desert is ready.

4. yam cha with ck at maulana. wow.. i really eat a lot. haha.. so far whole day the only constant factor has been Eating.

5. next day breakfast at old town white coffee. was soooo hungry.

6. after that, we went up to prepare for ck's contest. warm up was at red box just beside the sense cafe. then he had to sit in front and wait for his turn. so lonely...

good thing got friend go accompany. hehe..

meanwhile they tried persuading lin hui to join. since she could definitely sing much better than most of them.

the other two were destressing in front by taking pics~ say cheese~

finally, the final moment.

then the gals made the final decision. Join!

the 3 contestants plus one ke chuan~

while the others were cam-whoring outside awaiting the gals' turn, alap was slowly freezing to death inside since he was the jaga bag and drink guy.

and then again, it was the final moment.

the gals managed to get into the finals! congrats!

7. dinner was nice and filling.

8. finals! the song was also nice, but overall more demanding.

still, they got into the top 8! congrats!=]

after that, camwhoring outside. ^^

the judge tang xiao kang sang a few songs after that too~ i like his voice. bumped into my friend who is working for him le! such a small world. such a glamorous life too~

9. lepaking in IOI mall after the contest - heading for food~

10. food at wong kok! really a bread feast~ and waffles too!;p

plus a lot of fun and laughter~

and a fat cute BB~

11. last but not least, gui ning gao before we all left for home. too heaty dy these few days, until my nose can breathe fire. but then again, as alap said, when xiao lao shi hear my mandarin she will pengsan. haha..

first day at work...

2009-09-01T19:50:00.003+08:00

the saddest thing is that when i reported to JKN... i was the only fool who obediently reported on the date they said. everyone else had come up with all sort of excuses like no letter yet or kena cari rumah. so well...

then to the biro.. kena lambasted for wanting hosp seremban. the exact words running along the lines of..

'still young must go further ma! anak manja! must work outside rumah wan ah?! jauh sikit pun tak boleh!'

'ibu buat apa? guru? guru banyak cerewat punya! ingat mereka boss di sekolah then boss everywhere! so demanding!!'

wth.. insult me, then insult my parents... i learnt a new art - grinding my teeth while smiling. the only thought of consolation was that i'll be getting my pay while she blasted on.

then when i finally reached HTJ, (i was told anyone entering the hosp now must wear mask) so i waited there in the pharmacy office with my mask on, and no one wanted to talk to me.:( i guess it's hard to appear friendly when all they can see is ur eyes. smiley eyes anyone? so well...

then they were thinking of where to dump me. someone shouted... OPD la! then she can cover for raya. apparently everyone thought that was a great idea. coincidentally, TDM was full dy too (i dun wana do TDM yet anyway. so scaryyyy~ i even heard whispers of CDR~~~~ yikes! of course, OPD is known to be the most stressful session where everyone need to be QUICK! ACCURATE! EFFICIENT! no time or space for any error or delay) i was told to report to OPD where i will toil for 2 months. so well..

i went there. all drug names looked familiar yet alien. hmmm... i've seen this before somewhere... (i knew that phrase would haunt me someday. should have out-grown it whilst i was still in uni). i stood around (sort of like when time stands still - picture person standing in a room while everything/one else whizzes past around person), then it was 5pm! yay.. i thought.. punch out time. mana tau... suddenly i was told... LABEL! huh? i tried to look as blank as my mind felt. U! YES U! i looked around.. helplessly? U DUNO ENGLISH?!! err... yeah... i'm the new prp (wth, i just got here half an hour ago..) YA I'M TRAINING U NOW! err.. ok.. i fumbled with the boxes. the dosage and dosing instructions didn't seem to tally. before or after food? how la i noe?? i think my brain really degenerated. finally, he did it himself. PATIENT ALSO DIE DY LO!!! WHERE R U FROM? LEARN NOTHING WAN?? imu... i said in undertones.. he gave me a look that said... NO WONDER... sighz... he talked to me and another prp before we left for the day (at 6pm, one hour after fong gong).. he's quite nice actually. just shouts when there's a lot of work to be done. i have a lot to learn... brain... where r u??

my verdict?
OPD, 2 months.
i'm dead.

Potong Saga

2009-08-26T09:19:00.002+08:00

saw this from the 15 malaysian short films. this one is a must watch!! haha.. really 废到．．．

Sing K round 1

2009-08-24T15:04:00.003+08:00

round 2 pending~ haha..

Gathering with Suat Yee @ Temiang Corner

2009-08-23T00:13:00.003+08:00

finally got the chance to meet suat yee - our guest star for the day.=] really missed her so much. francis! faster come back la, before we forget what u look like. then our circles will be complete once again.=]

the food was not bad. alap's eyes nearly popped out when i ordered my nasi lemak. then he politely reminded me that i had already taken my dinner. ish.. now i feel so guilty with each mouthful. keep thinking of the calories~ haha..

we ended our yamcha session like we always do - with group pics! hmm.. temiang corner also not bad la, at least the tables are wide enough to take group shot after being 'gabung'. haha..

looking forward to when we can meet again~~

mOnsTeR hUnTinG~

2009-08-22T22:28:00.005+08:00

we squeezed in a short 'gathering' with jane june before she flew back off to uk by meeting up at midvalley. due to breakdown of the ktm, by the time we arrived, we were famished!

we headed straight for some asian food, since jane june was going to really miss it soon.;p what better place than little penang?

the food was goooooooood~~~~

after that, we went monster hunting, since they have invaded midvalley by parachuting in via shopping bags.

i received complaints that i'm too ganas dy. maybe it's time for some self-reassessment. haha..

on our way walking to carefour in search of my sriracha chilli sauce, we tried this drink highly recommended by jane june. really mou tak ding lo~ thumbs up for this one!

now i guess jane june is already boarding her plane. tkcare and all the best ya!~~ enjoy UK life while u still can. hehe..^^ and to fiona... so happy to see you!!!! enjoy ur short holiday~ you'll come back bombarded with evileyn's evileness.=p

My IMU convo ^^

2009-08-22T14:10:00.018+08:00

finally, after 2 previous graduations, it was time for me to wear my mortarboard. wahaha..

we were the returning pharmacy graduates! and we were proud of it! ^^v

didn't really get to meet many lecturers though, but it felt good to be back at imu. felt like home.=]

since i only got my robe sooo late on tuesday, there was simply no time to go to any studio for some family shot. so i had to take matters into my own hands and DIY some out. haha.. since i was at it, i tried a shot at doing some single shots too. pity there was no larger bookshelves to be found. but well, in life u learn to make do with what u've got.=]

finally, it was D-day. a very tiring day though. i had to wake up so early to prepare and then to start off for imu. gosh.. it was quite fun meeting back all my coursemates though. it seemed as if we didn't meet for ages. really missed them a lot.

we had to line up a lot.. to get our group shots, to enter the hall etc etc.. but i think that's where all the fun is, and where most of our pics got taken. so it's a blessing in disguise.;p

we have NO FEVER!

after the official ceremony was over, we were joined by family and friends. it was a good thing we had already taken our photos with coursemates, coz after the ceremony everyone seemed very busy taking family portraits.

i was so happy when i saw san san and lin hui. suddenly felt like i was no longer wandering around aimlessly.=] and of course, i suddenly had two personal photographers. hehe.. thanks! hugz..

wai yean managed to make an appearance just before i had to return my robe.

just as i was returning my robe, we bumped into kelvin and shu yin again. so ngam. hehe..

reunion of the midnight movie gang~

i had completely forgotten about our imu logo. haha.. until kee san asked. i'm so glad we took pics at this place, coz i simply love them!^^

we went to fusion heaven for lunch. gosh i missed that place so much.

this time, i saw that ho chiak! has been there too. i would personally recommend that place 100%!!!

the highlight of my day was definitely the desert~ hot hot chocolate oozing out from the soft soft chocolate cake onto the cold cold ice cream. it was really heaven squeezed into a mouthful.

before heading back to seremban, we stopped by at tong kei for EGG TARTS!

at the end of such a memorable day, i wana thank kee san, lin hui and wai yean for coming all the way to my convo and also for being my personal photographer.=]

thank you wai yean too for ur cute little bear and flowers~

and thank u circles, for ur gift. thanks kee san for ur extra gift of chocolates.

finally, convo's over. finally, i have to move on towards my next chapter of life. somehow.. my feet feel so heavy..

san san's convo~

2009-08-22T11:51:00.010+08:00

Happiness shared is happiness doubled. so i think kee san's happiness on that day must have been dunno tripled or quardrupled. haha..

introducing our new addition to our family -- JJ!

now is my turn. haha..

and everyone's turn. hehe.. san san so popular that day. like bintang~

wen qi made a special appearance on that day too~ maybe to claim her eyebrows. hehe..

i managed to grab some flower shots too, since it was less crowded on that day. ^^V

after san san went in, we adjourned to sweet bean for lunch, quite a hurried one in fact, since i had to go for rehearsal pretty soon over at imu. i should have just taken my own sweet time, since the rehearsal started like half an hour late. but anyways, the place was as nice as i remembered, and the deserts still as yummy as last time. my only disappointment was that the black sesame tong sui tasted a bit burnt. strange...

lin hui liked the mango so much. hehe.. see her tam chiak face~ =P

sen managed to join us for the last half an hour or so before we had to whisk off to imu.

finally, on this prestigious day where san san is graduating, i wish her all the best~ gosh, i've been saying these kinda things for too many blog posts dy, now i dunno what to say. too bad la since san's convo is the latest. haha.. blame ukm.

but really, wish you all the best and hope you have a smooth and happy future where all your dreams come true.=]

boon koon and lin hui's graduation~

2009-08-17T18:18:00.012+08:00

it was a very hot day. that's my deepest impression. haha..

no la, it was a very happy day, coz two of my closest friends were graduating.=]

alap and me went down to UKM first to grab some pics with/of lin hui, then with/of boon koon. however, since lh wasn't out yet, bk got our full attention. haha..

alap also honed his skills in using the 'pro' camera, as he likes to call it.;p

i like the bear bear. hehe.. it's just so soft and cuddly. gives the whole picture a softer edge to it. =]

but i guess alap apparently does not share my love for the bear. he was strangling it!! or flopping it around or whatever. sigh..

it was a really joyous occasion. the defining moment where all their efforts really paid back, the starting point where they embarked on a new chapter in their lives...

but of course, we didn't dwell on the enormonity of it all at that time. those are for when we are bored at home with plenty of time to go blogging. haha.. like me now.

anyways, one thing i love about graduations, apart from being glad seeing my friends and their families all so happy, is that it is the perfect time for me to capture their joy into pictures. pictures that i hope can portray their feelings even after years, pictures that can capture the essense of the moment.

as they say, pictures are worth a thousand words. maybe that's why my words have drastically decreased over the time i've been blogging. all replaced by pictures. haha.. but i digress..

on we go to see more pictures.=]

johnny came a bit later with his flowers. he looks like he's caught in the spotlight.;p

boon koon went around kepit-ing poor bear bear under her arm. looks like bear bear is enjoying his/her ride. keke..

and of course, not forgetting kee san, who always has the EYE for where the camera is.;p

there was this dramatic moment in our time there where lin hui suddenly asked... why johnny never wipe her sweat for her?? oh-oh... better hurry to placate her heart, johnny.;p

enjoying a moment of laughter together..=]

since alap couldn't go to kee san's convo, he had to take a replacement shot first. using bk's flowers and bear. haha.. looks nice. i like this pic.=]

finally, when i thought my sweat was really going to drown me, we went for lunch at this place near south city. not bad. the atmosphere was nice, the lighting was nice, the food not bad, and most of all, it was cooling~ i didn't really have apetite though, but really enjoyed the drink. sournade.. was it? i only know something -nade.;p refreshing, just what i needed. thanks pui chi for ur recommendation.=]

during the evening, we went back to bk's convo. and this time she appeared with yet another bouquet of flowers. haha..

we managed to get our group shot by bk's junior. thanks lots!;p

when the stream of ppl to take photos with slowly ebbed, we started doing some 'wu liao' stuff. that's just us. hehe..

with no photographer in sight, we resorted to 'big head' shots. not bad also la. haha..

my favourite pic.. hehe.. ^^

finally, for our last meal together on that tiring but meaningful day, we went to a restaurant in equine park behind serdang's jusco. the food was really not bad, rm40 for 4 dishes 4-5 people. the thing i like bout that is that you could change the style or meat any way you wanted.

all too quickly, the day was over. congrats lin hui and boon koon. you've really earned your success. now, the next step is yet another new journey. as it unravels before you step by step, i wish you both the brightest and happiest future beyond your wildest imagination. gambate!=]

p/s: a special thanks to my co-photographer alap. thanks for letting me have a chance to be in the photographs.=]

Alap's graduation

2009-08-11T21:47:00.007+08:00

our initial plan was to go to sunway to pass some time, then adjourn to alap's convo.

suddenly, we had a major change of plans, and off we were to ukm first for lin hui to settle some stuff. then we headed to times square! my favourite shopping place! hehe.. it was kinda a roller coaster ride for both of us, with much stressful signboard hunting. at one point, we suddenly went off to god knows where on one of those long wide highway-looking roads with many lanes all going different places and all seemed to be going to the point of no return. shudders.

finally, we were at times square dy, searching for the car park. we couldn't find it, and was turning into this small area with shops and all. looked like a small town or sth. then we turned a corner and oh shit! there were all those highway-looking roads all ahead of us. good thing there was an unofficial carpark just beside us, those on sand and broken tiles kind, which we gratefully (more like desperately) turned in. phew!

after that, of course we need more carbs. to gain back our energy. so here we are at food & tea! it's been a while. hi my beloved fried spaghetti!~ that was the only thing nice though. the gui ning gao was not bad also la, as a free desert in the set.

after shopping around (i managed to buy a t-shirt and a dress all in 15 minutes before we had to rush to upm. hehe.. the lack of time being due to us being waylayed by some takaful promoter..) we went for gui ning gao before heading back. gosh this is absolutely my favourite eva! first introduced by boon koon. tasty, with a hint of bitterness. so smooth it simply glides down your throat, and served with honey not too sweet, not too thick, j.u.s.t n.i.c.e... thumbs up for this one! it's rm7 per bowl though. in the long run, eu yang sang's powder, which is also nice, is kinder on the pocket. you gotta find ur own perfect honey though, then let me know. haha..

we finally arrived at upm, a lil' late due to the jam, the rain, and also our gui ning gao. haha.. sorry alap.

and when alap saw us he was sooo happy...

...coz his flowers had finally arrived.;p

apart from being busy taking flowers, as the day got longer, his presents also got more and more. a testament to how popular he was. haha..

and of course, since he was so popular, with the guys too, he was caught to be thrown. 3 times i think. man he was shaking after they were done. too exciting already i think. haha.. sometimes i'm so glad i'm born a girl.

phone calls after phone calls.. alap was so busy.

but.. still happy.=]

dinner was his treat at 花城 at rasah new village. really not bad wei. when i went home, even my dad told me he had heard bout that place. my favourite among the three dishes was the mee tikus, alap's favourite. cham.. i start to get addicted dy. haha.. then the choi sum also quite nice. not bitter at all. normally i really hate those old bitter ones. this is nice~

finally, congratulations to alap on graduating! you've made it! all the best as you embark on your journey into your future which i'm sure will be bright and exciting.

may all your dreams come true.=]

Buffet at Allson Klana Resort

2009-08-11T20:17:00.006+08:00

it was mum's birthday~ so we went for high tea buffet at Allson. the place was set up very nicely, maybe in conjunction with some functions. however, the food variety had reduced and there was no seafood at all, which was a bit disappointing. there were 2 new dimsum dishes though, which were nice.

there were some traditional malaysian dishes too, like Apam Johol...

Samosa...

Pisang cukur...

the interior of the hotel was also quite nice.=]

and the exterior of the buffet section had stilts and verandahs built too, reminding me of malay houses.

saw a little girl begging to be let out to play too. hehe..

and of course, after lunch, i sneaked out for some pics.^^

it was a nice meal, a family event. happy birthday mum.=]

kee yuan's birthday~

2009-08-11T18:49:00.004+08:00

Round 1...

at A&W, since lh had such a craving for the waffle.

it was supposed to be supper for me since i ate already, but look what we ordered. gosh..

and of course, our highlight of the day - waffle! with double scoop of ice cream somemore. hehe..

we made the bill up to rm45, just to get a bear. that conveniently became ky's birthday gift from us. haha..

Round 2...

Kajang Satay at Senawang.

to me, it was a bit disappointing. not as nice as i had imagined. but still ok la.

we adjourned to Secret Recipe for cake~ really delicious!

the new york cheese cake has become my new found favourite. ^^

of course, before that, we had the small birthday celebration, with bk and alap as the lead singers, and me as the photographer.^^V

Happy birthday kee yuan! hope you happy always, and may all your dreams come true.=]

Flowers *

2009-08-05T18:18:00.006+08:00